I don't really want to quit World of Warcraft(WoW). I just want to stop playing for the entire day. I can't seem to go a day without playing. And when I say playing I mean the entire waking day.
I am disabled (bipolar disorder) and do not work. The government sends me money each month and that is enough money to live off of. And afford my two accounts on wow and buy gold each month.
The game gives me something to do. Today I thought I should quit but really I know I cannot. I don't think I can handle doing absolutely nothing all day in my place. I have no car, no job and no friends. I hardly have money for other hobbies.
So I play WoW. I pretty much play the entire day. The max level in WoW right now is level 60 and I have 3.
Right now I am levelling a new one up, trying to do 1 level per day. This grind is killing me yet I can't stop. I'm going to start playing him in a about 15 minutes. And I can't wait!
I have been playing for one year now. I plan on playing for at least another year. We have an expansion pack coming out. I honestly thought about:
Deleting all my characters, cancelling my account, uninstalling the game and then breaking my cd's.
I am not ready to do that. I am really in deep in this game and my whole day revolves around it. I've read the 12 steps and decided that they are not for me. I've read your suggestions and what to do instead of gaming and some of them were helpful. But I know I won't stop playing wow for anything right now. I just want to start spending an hour or two doing something else everyday, but that is EXTREMELY difficult. Prying myself away from the game is easier when my eyes get sore. When that happens I just take some advil and suffer through it. Or take my meds, sleep and then game some more when I wake up.
I know what you are thinking: I need to quit. I am here to say I cannot and I know this makes me less in touch with the real world then most people. I live my life in computer games. I know that is a sad sad way to live my life. But I am not aware of it while playing. I could go on but I'll stop for now. I will check back for responses. Maybe coming here will help lessen my addiction?
Also: thank god I don't play EQ. From what I can see that game would eat me alive. Btw I am 32 years of age.
Edited by: Kanarus at: 8/2/06 7:45
Quote:Also: thank god I don't play EQ. From what I can see that game would eat me alive. Btw I am 32 years of age.
ItA's not the game, itA's the player.
Wish you luck in finding some kind of balance in your life. Not being able to work is tough, as modern day lifes revolve around work and the feeling of purpose it gives.
Wish you to find your place in the real world, you are right that it is much easier to find such a place in the virtual world, but then, if you can play computer all day long, maybe you can do something more productive with your time? (donA't know about the severity of your disablement)
Just a thought.
Max
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What you think, you create. What you say, you produce. What you do, you call forth more of.
don't mind me this is just another worthless post from someone leeching the soul out of this earth
You found your way here. You left an articulate message. You can communicate. What other skills do you have?
Many community colleges have on-line classes. Is there something you're interested in learning?
There are thousands of organizations that need volunteers. I find helping other people to be extremely rewarding.
Do you get enough exercise?
AND ANOTHER WORTHLESS POST
I am glad you are here.
Depression is a disease, there are treatments.
If you need help, its available.
Good luck to you.
Leveling in Real Life
what a sad thread :( You are in my prayers.