Hi All. I found this place by some help and have read some threads, questioning if I "belong" here or not. In short, I can tell you that I quit my Second Life gaming about 5 weeks ago. Prior that I spent everything from 10-20 hrs/day online, and at the end I had about 15 hrs/day online. I'm sure you know the story; no sleep, not enough food, no social life etc. Also, I just started my own company in August and that wasn't going very well since I spent so much time on Second Life. Also I was neglecting my husband and our two children :'( and everything in my life except what had to do with my Second Life. ... I was drawn into the "darker" places of the web-community with roleplay and cybersex and my mind got more and more BRAINWASHED.
What helped me to quit was the fact that I'm doing personal therapy and I have a great therapist that finally told me ENOUGH, and I broke down in tears and cried for hours the day that I quit. The following days were hell, I got physically sick and slept most of the time, trying to escape all the symtoms of withdrawl. I was so confused and scared, angry, frustrated...you name it. I tried bargaining with myself and my therapist saying I can't be happy unless I can't have a few hours online each day. I WAS SO SICK! It took about a week until I felt somewhat clearer, and now several weeks later I am so happy I quit, but I also notice my thoughts...That MAYBE I could just go back one time... who would it harm? :-
Nooooo, I can't go back. I needed to find something else. And someone told me of this website. Before I have called my therapist every day, for support, but now she's gone travelling for a month.
I don't think I have realized what a powerful addiction this is. I have addiction in my family and never thought I'd end up in any addiction, neglecting my beautiful children.
I need support and I hope to find it here. Thank you for listening.