Quit Playing Games, Now I Just Feel Empty and Depressed Most Days

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Quit Playing Games, Now I Just Feel Empty and Depressed Most Days

I just recently quit the game Titanfall. I have decided to be done with all First Person Shooter games and the like for good. I am 30 years old and have spent the last 10 just sitting around and playing them. I had a passion once, I wanted to learn and get into music. I made some techno here and there but never actually learned how to play an instrument and never really devoted my time to trying to develop any skill thanks to being stuck in front of these games. I know its nott he actual game's fault, it is mine. They are adrenaline zapping and mindless, sure I might develop some sharp reflexes and be able to spot things more clearly but in the real world this doesn't work out so well. I am now almost 2 weeks "clean" and am suffering some major "withdraw" symptoms. I have been diagnosed with ADHD and am on Adderall now to help me concentrate, gaming seems to have destoyed any ability I had to concentrate. I know some games are great for strategies and memorization, but I don't think this is the case with the games I played. Limited in depth, short in gameplay, repetive and never really does anything different. The point here is that about 7 years ago, I gave up on a passion i had to want to get into Electronic music, become an artist and entertain people. I am now trying to respark that dream but am finding it difficult to even open a theory book and read it. Most days i feel empty and I just want to go back and play. I've yelled at people, I've neglected important thing like a job, paying the bills etc. I can't concentrate even on my meds. I just need some advice, opinions, or at least know someone shares (shared) this misery with me, thanks!

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Welcome DoneShooting!  I

Welcome DoneShooting! I went through exactly the same thing - mind felt like it was on pause. I can say it does go away and things are much better now. Coming to the online meetings here helped the most. They are at 3pm and 9pm US EST. Hope to see you! Hang in there!!

Hugs, Lisa Video game free since 4/17/2014

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Thanks for the fast reply,

Thanks for the fast reply, mind elaborating on what you went through?

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The first couple of weeks

The first couple of weeks seemed as if each day lasted a year. I was unable to concentrate or do anything - kind of just sat there staring at the tv or stuff. Had game dreams. Cried a couple times a day missing my ingame friends. Whole world seemed gray. Felt like my brain was on pause. It began to lessen around day 10 and lifted within a few weeks. I found this site and began going to the online meetings here with other recovering game addicts like me at about day 5 which helped IMMENSELY. First it made me realize I wasn't going crazy cuz others had gone through exactly what I was going through. Second it gave me hope cuz alot of them had months game free and were doing great and had a life again and were happy. Third, in those first few weeks it gave me a safe place to go to during that time my brain wouldn't work lol. I'm about 4 months game free now and the change is a miracle to me. I don't have a huge life of activities and stuff yet but have some and most important I feel pretty good about myself and life and the furture which is HUGE change from where I was feeling the last months of gaming (*shivers remembering).

Hugs, Lisa Video game free since 4/17/2014

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awesome that you got through

awesome that you got through it, what was your game? if you don't mind me asking. I know this is going to take some time, I have no illusions about it. I just did not ever see this becoming such a huge problem! My first red flag went up when earlier this year, I dropped 4 thousand dollars on a new computer.

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Lol - I did the same thing

Lol - I did the same thing on a new computer for gaming. My games were originally first person shooters like COD and Killing Floor in Steam, then I got convinced to play mmo's by steam friends and last game I was playing nonstop was Tera. It really didn't matter what game it was. When I reached the point of despair, I had over 330 steam games, in debt for new gaming pc, etc etc - gaming had consumed my life and reduced it to a small room sitting behind a pc aimlessly shooting things, feeling life had no purpose or interest. Come in the chatroom and come to meetings - You will hear many of us share we all went through this.

Hugs, Lisa Video game free since 4/17/2014

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Yes as Lisa said come to the

Yes as Lisa said come to the meetings! It is helpful to be able to chat with others who have gone or going through exactly what you are.

"Yesterday is History, Tomorrow a Mystery, Today is a Gift, Thats why it's called the Present"

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Hi DoneShooting and welcome

Hi DoneShooting and welcome to Olga. Congratulations on 2 weeks of no gaming. You've come a long way already. After I quit gaming, I sometimes thought I was going crazy because of the emotional roller coaster of withdrawal. The worst was the depression that lasted for months. But after about 6 months, I finally felt somewhat "normal" again. It takes time for our brains to rewire after quitting games and what you're feeling is very normal. Make use of this website by reading posts, posting your thoughts and feelings, responding to others to support and encourage them, and attending meetings. It all helps. It's so hard to stay game free after quitting, but together we're doing it and you can too. Best of luck to you.

 

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Welcome.  Like everyone

Welcome. Like everyone says, meetings are cool. There are a lot of them available:

http://www.olganon.org/?q=calendar

The withdrawal gets better. But there's still clean-up to do. One step at a time. Hope to see you around.

I am a recovering computer game and gambling addict. My recovery birthday: On May 6, 2012 I quit games and began working a program of recovery through OLGA No computer games or slot games for me since December 12, 2012. No solitaire games with real cards since June 2013.

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Oh my I've done it too....

Oh my I've done it too.... my old computer just wasn't powerful enough to run my game smoothly,

So yes I paid a lot of money for a brand new one. I even upgraded my mobile phone to the most expensive and best one available at the time solely for the purpose of installing the mobile version of the game so that I could game everywhere and in work on my lunch breaks.

This not only cost me a lot. But only looking back on my behaviour do I now realise just HOW dependant I was on being able to access my game as often as possible.

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Congrats on waking up man!

Congrats on waking up man! Just do your best and take it one day at a time and, like people are saying, give the meetings a shot. I was skeptical until i sat in on one and just observed. I feel like the meetings are invaluable and i've learned a lot from the experiences of others on here.

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Congrats on quitting

Congrats on quitting DoneShooting! I was addicted with relapses for one year to 2 mmos- Dragons of atlantis and clash of clans. Like the others, I found the depression to be awful. The first 2 weeks were the worst for me. I always wanted to play, thought about what was going on in the game all the time, cried about it a lot and felt hopeless. Cutting off communication in all ways from my gaming friends felt the worst. But in the long run it helped in sooo many ways. Talking to them (even after quitting and talking about non gaming things) was still a trigger for me. Take it one day at a time and try and get one thing done a day. Don't be too overwhelmed by all the stuff piling up. It'll all get worked out with time. I think it's important to really let yourself feel how hard it is and how depressing it is. Working through these feelings and doing positive things for yourself that aren't gaming related will help to form healthier habits and lead to a more positive, happier life!

-Alyssa

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