I am so low feeling that every task seems enormous and beyond me

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theyounger
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I am so low feeling that every task seems enormous and beyond me

I have reached the lowest of lows, guy. I am 27-years-old, unemployed, addicted, and feeling overwhelmed by the prospect of picking up the pieces of my life to build something better. I don't even know where to start, because even small tasks like cleaning my bedroom seem monumental at this moment.

One thing I am aware of, and it's the only thing keeping me from curling into a ball and wanting to die and pass from this life, is how important thoughts and language are. And the ability to reach out and touch someone with words is a wealth that surpasses all of the gold in the world.

I am grateful a place like this exists. I don't feel so alone. 

 

 

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Welcome to olga! I was amazed

Welcome to olga! I was amazed how much it helped to feel less alone in this addiction. I was really depressed when I stopped gaming and had a hard time managing anything in my life. It's taken time but it has gotten better. Come check out the meetings. That was the thing that helped me most at first. The ones on mumble at 10pm est have the most people at them.

http://www.olganon.org/forum/line-meetings-message-board/all-online-meetings-computervideo-gaming-addicts

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Welcome to olga! I was amazed

Welcome to olga! I was amazed how much it helped to feel less alone in this addiction. I was really depressed when I stopped gaming and had a hard time managing anything in my life. It's taken time but it has gotten better. Come check out the meetings. That was the thing that helped me most at first. The ones on mumble at 10pm est have the most people at them.

http://www.olganon.org/forum/line-meetings-message-board/all-online-meetings-computervideo-gaming-addicts

 

Thank you, orchid! And thank you for sharing the link. It is quite remarkable how uplifting to my mood this place is.

Video game addiction seems different than other kinds of addictions because it is isolating in the extreme. It's just you and your computer for stretches (10-15 hours sometimes) of time, and there is no outside voices to lend perspective. Yesterday when I created this thread, I had one of those perspective moments, where I looked around my bedroom, looked at what I was doing, and felt the deepest most bottomless despair. I felt very alone. Just coming to this place and reading other people's threads helped me feel less like an alien in a hostile world. 

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Welcome!

Welcome Kyle!  Oh man could I relate.  When I look back at my life when gaming, I was literally spending 50% of my entire life alone in one small 16x18 foot room on the computer with my only remaining friends being people I had never met and were cybergaming buddies.  I had no clue and no energy to pull out of that place.  It was only by going to the meetings here that I got out and now my world is huge instead of that tiny room I lived in while gaming.  Hope to see you in one of the meetings!

Hugs, Lisa Video game free since 4/17/2014

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theyounger, I am in similiar

theyounger, I am in similiar condition. 26 years old, poor communication skill, been gaming for around 13 years. Browsing this site give me hope for recovery, hopefully you will gain something here too that help your recovery.

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Coming here & getting face-2

Coming here & getting face-2-face help/meetings has helped me a lot. No matter how low I feel, there's always another reality of myself that I can find and tap into. I think i've found it now

See u around

Never alone, go to meetings <3 Mumble voice meetings on cgaa are great, see you there <3

 

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