I'm 46 year old, married, father of 3 boys ranging from 5 to 11 years old. I've been gaming all my life, since the days of the Atari 2600. TRS-80 Model III anyone? I used to play PC games and Console games in moderation, even wouldn't play for months at a time. Then came the iPhone and its apps. Over time the phone got better, the graphics got better and the games got better. I am an iPhone game addict.
The ease of access, being right there in my hand at any place and anytime. I was gaming at home and at work. It got worse when I started using In-App purchases. First I'd spend 2.99, 4.99, 14.99, no big deal...I can handle that. Then you find yourself hitting a wall, you need to get better, you want to get better, you like being the top player. Finally, I found myself spending 99.99 at a time with little to no hesitation. I've racked up tens of thousands in debt due to phone gaming and in-app purchases, something I would never have even dreamed of doing back in my PC/Console only days.
It caught up with me last year and I confessed my problem to my wife. We worked on how to attack the debt and I promised I'd never game again on my phone. That lasted for about 6 months. I thought, I'll just play at work. So I started playing again and started playing without purchases. Then over time I'd find myself becoming impatient with how long builds took or how long it took to get good characters or items. So I thought, "I'll only spend $25 a week. I can handle that easily." That lasted for about a month and I was back into my old spending routine again.
So here I am again, in more debt and now at a breaking point. I've wasted time and money on something intangible instead of spending time with my family and because of that, I risk losing it all. I've taken the first steps. Wife has all my credit cards, online access to all my accounts. My phone has been locked down so I can’t make any setting changes without my wife. Now when I'm at home, the phone sits in a charging station instead of in my pocket. Even as sick as I feel with everything I've done to my family, the urge to game just doesn't easily go away.
I'm an addict to phone gaming, I know that now. I can't explain why I did it even when I knew the damage it would cause. I'd just find myself getting sucked in and repeating bad habit after bad habit. So here I am trying again, looking for others like me that might be out there. My life is now controlled by conditions; conditions I must follow or lose everything. That's me, this is where I'm at in my life. Trying to repair trust that I've destroyed not once, but twice.
My name is Scott and I’m an iPhone game addict with debt issues.