I think this is one of the questions that a lot of us gamers once asked ourself sometime in our gaming experiences.
I once attempted to come here back when i was 18 years old, playing video games for money and trying to reach the top of the leaderboards in every single online addictive game that I could set my hands on. Here I am now at 24 years old, haven't achieved anything that I have wanted thus far in my life. I have quit university twice only reaching the second year into my degree, is this because of gaming? is this because I have completion issues? One of the questions I now ask myself everyday is... What if i just didn't play video games in this period of my life and put my all into things that would truly help my future?
At this age I now only get a buzz when climbing the ranks in games such as League of legends and Fortnite, playing any single player game I get instant boredom. Not progressing up these ranks results in anger, frustration, long nights grinding which ends up punishing me the next day where I would rock up to work late by half an hour because I was too tired/depressed to get out of bed I've been in relationships where they are trying to spend more time with me but instead of sitting on the couch watching a TV show or movie with them I go put myself infront of the computer and end up playing until sleep. I have also talked to 2 psychologists about this issue, none of them having anywhere near enough experience with this problem always telling me just to play less... we all know how well that works. Either that or they put it onto another issue like problems completing achievements instead of concentrating on the fact that I asked for help on a bigger issue.
I sit here typing this not really knowing what the next day will bring, I put a smile on my face and everyone thinks I am ok. I am never on time, the days get harder and harder the longer I go through the semester of University knowing I'm setting myself further and further behind stressing myself out more everyday. The thing i'm worried about the most is that one day i'm going to wake up, look at my achievements, look at my friends, see how much time i've truley wasted and give up on life.
I think it's time to quit, i think about quitting every single day and I just can't get myself to do it. I want this more than anything In my life. I hope that everyone here achieves everything they want in life.