Hi, I'm James and I am addicted to video games.

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jamesnh
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Hi, I'm James and I am addicted to video games.

I have been playing video games for a long time, starting with those Learning Company games that kids could play at my elementary school. My home gaming experience really took off when I got a PlayStation 2 for Christmas one year.

I'm not sure if I can say I was addicted to games at first, because there were a lot of other things going on in my life that made me happy during grade school. I earned excellent grades at school and made friends while playing trumpet in my school's band. I was so successful that I was able to get into a reputable college with a chance to earn an excellent education. I don't say this to brag, but it's important to know how well I was doing to see the detriments excessive use of video games and the internet have gotten me.

Intellectually, I belonged at the college I attended, and I was able to maintain good grades, but in all other aspects I was completely out of my element. I struggled to make friends, I participated in no extracurricular activities, and I had an onset of a serious mental illness. All of this seemed to demand a way to escape, which video games provided. I started to make more and more friends online and would spend hours at a time watching other people play video games on streaming sites. All the while I was unaware of the problem that was brewing.

The biggest thing gaming has taken away from me is motivation. I was able, somehow, to graduate from college, but I have been struggling to decide on a career path because nothing outside of gaming seems to interest me. I haven't been able to cultivate any kind of romantic relationship since high school. I'm therefore stuck in a job that pays little and doesn't hold my interest, and there hasn't been much hope for me to move on.

I had a talk with my mom this afternoon that led me to the realization that video games were commanding all of my attention and are causing a problem in the other aspects of my life. I found this website while looking for a place where this issue is taken seriously and for what it is for me: an addiction. I have tried to tell my therapist that I have an addiction to gaming, but we haven't been able to work on it in a serious way, and there are few other places where gaming addiction is considered to be a problem. I hope by that participating on this website that I can find a way to eliminate games from my life so that I can meet other, more meaningful goals.

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09/22/2018 - Last day I've played or watched other people play video games

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welcome

Welcome James, sounds like you're in the right place.  Your story is familiar and similar to mine.  It helps to know we're not alone in this.  Compulsive gaming is a powerful problem that affects everything in life.  I didn't realize it when I first got here but I've been getting more honest with myself and can see how my relationship and friendships, my job and career, my hygiene and home, my self-esteem, moods, memory, sleep, and diet, EVERYthing was affected to some degree.  And year after year things got worse, never better, while I was still gaming.

I've been able to stop gaming and start meeting goals that are important to me, things that are fulfilling, not the empty "achievements" in games.  It helped to listen in at the meetings and try out the things that have worked well for others.  There are a lot of friendly, supportive people in recovery who are willing to share what worked for them.  I hope you'll check it out.

http://www.olganon.org/forum/line-meetings-message-board/all-online-meetings-computervideo-gaming-addicts

You're not alone in this!  I hope to hear updates as you stay off games.

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Thank you so much. I had a

Thank you so much. I had a lot of anxiety today thinking about giving up video games and I kept trying to justify to myself that perhaps maybe this isn't really a problem, but I was able to stay away from video games for today. I distracted myself from the urge to withdraw from my family to use the computer by choosing to watch the television show they had on, and it actually really helped.

I am looking forward to listening in on the meeting tonight. I even have an alarm set on my cell phone so I don't miss it. I don't think I am going to take a turn to speak, my goal is to listen to other peoples' stories to hear what experiences they have been going through.

I will be honest, I was just about ready to jump right back into video games until I saw that you replied to my post, so thank you for showing me that I am not alone and reminding me of why I decided to start on my recovery in the first place.

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Welcome James

Welcome James

I hope you find the support you need to stay quit. It's great that you are seeing how games have affected your life and you are starting to make changes.

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Hang in there, James.  It

Hang in there, James.  It gets better.

How's day two going?  Let me know if you want to talk.  One of the things that helped me overcome urges to game in my first few months off gaming was to call someone up on the phone.  Usually the urge evaporated as soon as I connected with another ex-gamer in recovery.

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