I'm new here so please bare with me if I ramble on, I really don't know how to start off...
I am the wife of a gaming addict. We have 3 children together - 16, 9 and 3yrs.
My husband suffers from borderline personality disorder, along with anxiety and depression.
He has been addicted to gaming since he was a teenager and it has recently gotten worse.
My husbands life revolves around gaming, he will play all night and sleep all day leaving me to raise the children, cook, clean and look after the house. For the past 3 yrs he has slept on the sofa - his choice. He hasn't helped to raise our 3yr old and knows nothing about her. He has no patience, always seems cold hearted and shows no interest in his family.
He has tried to limit the hours he plays but it doesn't work, he gets dragged in deeper and deeper into fantasy land.
I feel like a single parent having to do everything alone. My self confidence has gone down hill, I'm lonely and depressed and I haven't had a break in 3 yrs.
My husband started playing ESO and he got hooked, big time... He would play for 12hrs a day, sometimes more... It would really annoy me that his responsibilities had gone out the window. He'd have loads of fun playing and talking to people online but couldn't share the same with his family. Long story, short... I ended up snapping the disc.
We have spoken about his addiction and he does understand that he is addicted but he hates me for snapping the disc... I know it was wrong but I honestly felt driven to it.
He says that life is boring without the game, he says that I am trying to control him, mould him into someone else.
He say's I only want him to get better for mine and the children's sakes, rather than for himself.
I have stuck by him through everything and the only emotion he shows is for that fkn game-sorry-.
I am physically and mentally drained. Everything I do is for my family... I have only had 30 mins child free in 3 yrs as my husband doesn't even look after the children long enough for me to have a bath alone...
I love him but I cannot continue to be a doormat and I definitely can't keep raising my children around this type of negativity, it isn't fair.
I feel like walking out but I have nowhere to go. I want him to get the help he needs but he thinks I am the one who's being selfish by taking away his only enjoyment...
Hopefully all of the above made sense. I'd really appreciate some guidance.
Thanks for reading ?