30 years old now, been addicted for the last 10 years

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30 years old now, been addicted for the last 10 years

My life has been non-existent. I spend pretty much every waking hour playing Dota or on the computer watching movies in some sort of way. I can't get out of my life style and I keep pushing my family away. I lie to everyone I know, they have no clue how pathetic and sad my life is, I lie about having a job, about having a life but I have nothing. I would be on the streets if it weren't for my father taking care of me and paying for my expenses. I've been chasing the dream of being a big deal on twitch for years and for a while I thought I was going to make it, but my poor attitude and the way I push people away ruined everything for me. I've been dwelling in my own depression and sadness for years and I don't know how to change. 

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Just looking for help

Just looking for help

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welcome

Welcome, you're not alone!  Positive change is possible.  I get that you feel stuck, because I was there and I've met many others who were there.  We couldn't imagine life without gaming and felt lost when thinking about how to set our lives on a new healthy track.  I have some recommendations here:

1. Connect with others, Don't go it alone.  We struggle and despair and relapse into bingeing when trying to deal with this alone.  Together we're able to do what we could not have done alone.  Check out the daily meetings at 1:30pm and 10pm.  It's fine to just listen, nothing is expected of you.

2. Priority #1 is just not gaming between now and the end of the day.  Have you not gamed for a full day before?  All we need to aim for is going between now and the time we go to bed without starting that first game.  To make it through those hours, we need to...

3. Take advantage of the support available.  You're worth it.  We give support and get support freely and we all stay off games today.  People stay in touch with each other through the forum and WhatsApp and phone calls.

4. To turn our lives around, we need to keep it simple: Just take a few positive steps today, and plan to do the same tomorrow.  Those little steps add up as the months go by, as long as we don't bring it all back crashing down by gaming again.

It may feel impossible, but it's not.  Other people who have been in your place have made bits of progress with self-care and employment and family relations and better decision-making, and have seen those bits add up over months and years.  The change is gradual, sometimes painfully slow, but after a while we're amazed when we look back and see how far we've come.

If you really want this, message me.  We'll set up a time to talk.  Talking will help me stay off games today.

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