Mostly want to vent a bit because I doubt I will ever quit gaming so here we go.
I've been playing since being a young boy 30years ago at age 6. Now being 36 it is part of me and it is memories that are pointless,
I remember bits and pieces of games, I don't remember all of them. I remember games I played with friends I used to have. I remember playing MMORPG's with friendships I used to have but no longer have. With re-release of World of Warcraft classic I look at the game and feeling Nostalgia for playing it intensely for 5years and then quitting it. I want to play it again and I do not want to play it again. I feel sad.
I am now recently married with a baby on the way and a good job. It is all mostly for quitting MMORPG's but I still game alot in single player and I play games but get bored and I want to play something but there is nothing to play and I get sad.
I feel sad that I cannot recreate those experiences I had growing up with games and having lots of free time to play. Now games are kind of disappointing because I cannot recreate such experiences.
I have also been diagnosed with POTS recently and I think it may have something to do with playing video games all my life and not having exercise...or maybe I play games because I have POTS?
I am not sure but I almost feel like all I want to do is play something in life but I also do not want to play anything.
What can I do? Em I stuck? is it just addiction feelings that will go away if I quit permnenately? I never made many friends and social activities make me fatigued, I am not sure how I can function outside of being in a game, its seems like such a tough effort to just speak or do anything.
" land is ahead but i have to focus on pedalling and not thinking about snu-snu"