Addicted To World Of Warcraft

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Addicted To World Of Warcraft

Where to start...

I guess I should start with asking for help. Please help me stop playing this bloody game!

I have played lots of PC games over the years but nothing has sucked me in like WoW. I started playing it when it first came out in the mid 1990s. About 2 years ago I stopped playing for about a year then picked it back up for the summer. I quit again then went back to it about 2 months ago. Over those months I've dug so far into the gaming world everything else has melted into the background.

I'm in graduate school and have done really well so far. I'm in my last year, which is really demanding, and have been blowing off assignments in order to game. I've been hiding my play time from my wife. Lying to her breaks my heart. I feel like I'm cheating on her...certainly violating her trust.

My school career is in jeopardy if I don't stop playing.

This morning I deleted the game from my computer and canceled my account. I have tons of resolve at the moment, but I know that will fade when I feel the pressure of life and want to lose myself into the game.

Please help me.

Game free since 3/3/2014.

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My spirit goes out to you my

My spirit goes out to you my friend. It was my game of choice, too. It is a courageous step to stop, to delete you files and cancel your subscription. You are in the right place. Talk to other members, read, and listen, attend an online meeting and keep coming back!

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Welcome to OLGA MC.  I'm so

Welcome to OLGA MC. I'm so glad you found us! I didn't play WoW but I played Second Life and was sucked so far into that game it was my world. I felt like I was my avatar and not myself. I totally know how it is with the lying. I lied for years to my husband and it put a wedge between us. It's awful. We are addicts.

I encourage you to post here and read the responses and then come to the meetings if you can. Click on the tab at the top to find a meeting that fits your schedule. Also, many can be recovery buddies here too that you can reach out to and talk with, and eventually you might elect to find a sponsor here.

All I know is I would've lost my marriage had it not been for OLGA. I came here and never left. Just keep coming back ok? And I know it's hard, but try to be patient about it. This is a HUGE step you took. Things don't change overnight but each time you come back here and reach out, you are taking a step in your recovery.

BIG HUGS

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I too am a WoW survivor. I

I too am a WoW survivor. I got into the game with open beta and completely became absorbed in it until two years ago where I managed to stop playing it. I managed to not play the last complete expansion, and I'm thrilled.

I would suggest you get to the nightly chat meetings. We can help you. Expect withdrawals. Oh yes, I had major withdrawals.

And keep writing! Welcome and hugs.

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Welcome to OLGA Manchild!

Welcome to OLGA Manchild! Hope you could make the daily meeting at 9 pm Eastern time.

It's good to have goals and dreams, but while you're waiting for things to change, waiting for promises to come to pass, don't be discontent with where you are. Learn to enjoy the season that you're in--Pastor Joel Osteen

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Welcome Man

Welcome Man Child,

Breaking away is the hardest part, well done for getting this far and recignising that you had a problem. I also noticed my life melting away while I was glued to pixcels in my final year of education.

This place helps, we're here for you. try and get to a chat or video meeting, your not alone.

Other fellowships such as CoDA and NA could also help you, Thankyou so much for joining our community.

Becca

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Thanks everyone.  Knowing

Thanks everyone. Knowing I'm not struggling alone is helpful. I was beginning to think I was crazy. I thought..."how can a grown man with a wife and kids be addicted to a **** video game?". That's the reason behind the screen name. I'm an adult but feel as helpless as a child.

I'm working hard today to get caught up on some assignments that I blew off this past week. I'm exhausted from being up most of the night playing. It's almost like I have a hangover. I guess it's sort of a gaming "emotional" hangover. It feels terrible.

Even as I write this I'm thinking about the game and wondering what my online "friends" are doing.

I'll spend some time reading the forums rather than gaming today. I think that will help.

Game free since 3/3/2014.

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That sounds like a very good

That sounds like a very good idea, I find the step ones are great reading materials, as they help me remember why I'm doing this.

http://www.olganon.org/?q=node/27592

When I was coming off the games I was really hard on myself, then someone told me to just be thankful and pleased with myself for every moment I abstain. It does get better, it won't happen overnight.

I had the exact same experience, thinking about whats going on in the game, for me it was the same as breaking up with someone, I think about them all the time, then a few months down the line, I realise I think of them less.

If you want to ping me an email, go ahead, I'm in the UK but I'll be up for another hour or two.

All the best, have a lovely day!

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HEllo, I am two weeks clean

HEllo,

I am two weeks clean of my game so things are very raw here too.

I cry a lot, the first two days I felt my life was so completely dead. But that is because the game had slowly but surely been replacing my life and emotions and gradually over the days my life has continued to return. It's early and still not easy by any means.

i think by reading here and equipping yourself with the knowledge of withdrawal symptoms and what to expect - so you can go through it and realise it's all quite normal and part of the path - and that this will fade - helps.

I find distraction works for a time. Talking to my partner and crying a lot also helps. I'll sit with him when I have run out or became tired from distraction techniques. You may find it hard to become focused on books, heavy work etc but this is another side effect which I'm sure gets better over time.

game dreams! You may find yourself having game dreams too.

I think there is huge grief and loss when you leave the game - after all it's been your life, socially and otherwise. It's trying to get through these tough emotions which can be difficult. Keep reminding yourself why you stopped and try to push out the reasoning which you may experience for returning to the activity.

I hope to be here daily if there's anything you need.

Koc addict

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Hugs, don't be afraid to

Hugs, don't be afraid to reach out for help. Keep up the good work!

It's good to have goals and dreams, but while you're waiting for things to change, waiting for promises to come to pass, don't be discontent with where you are. Learn to enjoy the season that you're in--Pastor Joel Osteen

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Welcome to OLGA, MC.  I'm

Welcome to OLGA, MC. I'm mostly just going to echo a lot of the things that have already been said...it's a big step to even recognize the fact that you have a problem, and you're right to think that the hard part is going to be when the pressures of life set back in and you want to go an hide in the game again. Quitting games is a lot easier than staying quit from games, and if you're anything like the rest of us here, you'll need help. There's a reason why we do it together...meetings, sponsors, recovery buddies...there are lots of good options for support around here, and I have personally benefitted from using literally all three of those options.

Don't be too hard on yourself right now...you'll likely experience some withdrawal symptoms, although what they will be for you, nobody can say. Taking things one day at a time has helped me a lot, as has posting and reading other posts here on OLGA. I hope to see you in a meeting some time soon...hugs!

When you're going through hell...keep going. --Winston Churchill There is no pit so deep that God is not deeper still --Corrie ten Boom

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Hey ManChild! I never played

Hey ManChild! I never played WoW but have played other MMORPGs before and know first-hand how addicting they can be. I found reading this story to be very helpful in pushing me to kick my video game habit:

I Kept Playing - The Costs of My Gaming Addiction http://kotaku.com/5384643/i-kept-playing--the-costs-of-my-gaming-addiction

It sounds like I'm in a similar position to you: I'm finishing up college, close to getting married, and feel terrible when hiding my addiction. I've found that reading the stories of others really helps me to realize the price of allowing this addiction to continue: lost jobs, spouses, family, friends, etc. I've also realized I can't just "play for a little bit" because I quickly get sucked into whatever it is I'm playing. I've decided that cold turkey is the only way to go for me.

I wish you (and myself) the best in beating this addiction!

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Yeah, believe me I tried to

Yeah, believe me I tried to deal with this addiction alone but it was not working. I had no choice but to ask for help because I was so desperate. I am usually not a big fan of asking others for help.

It's good to have goals and dreams, but while you're waiting for things to change, waiting for promises to come to pass, don't be discontent with where you are. Learn to enjoy the season that you're in--Pastor Joel Osteen

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