I love that I have found a place, where my carbon copy story e told and it be alright.
I have been playing World of Warcraft since beta, before that City of Heroes. CoH was the first MMO I ever played, and it blew my mind. I was a very imaginative child and when I first saw my char jump over a building I was hooked. While I have played games like Quake and Unreal Tournament since high school, World of Warcraft was "it" for me. I have always been a fan of good stories and in the few years before WOW came out read the entire tolkien series Lord of the Rings many times. This affinity to fantasy and story I think make my assimilation into Azeroth that much easier. In the time since the retail release I have managed to get 2 of my best friends hooked as well. I am in a guild that runs the highest instances in the game and have put my self into a role of responsibility with them.
I realized about 3 months ago that I have a problem. Now my days consist of working 3 days a week at a job I love and coming home to do nothing but play WoW. I used to play golf, fly fish, rock climb, camp really anything out doors... Now days off are spent either farming materials for runs or leveling alts etc. I am a senior in college, and this semester I "took some time off" (the obvious lie I told everyone else) to allow for more time in game. I have one semester of college left and all I can think of is this game that gives no satisfaction.
I tried to quit in September, I even cancelled my subscription to WoW, but happened to be playing when the game time expired and it kicked me. Needless to say I IMMEDIATLEY reactivated my account and kept playing.
I have really hurt most of my real life friends; if I get a call from one and I'm playing I will willfully ignore the call. I am finding it very difficult to talk to anyone about anything outside of WoW, it's consuming me. To drop into metaphor, I am teetering on the edge, I see in front of me this huge black hole, and I want to go in... I know I have a problem, that I'm addicted and yet I'm going to keep playing.
I am also a Christian, and firmly believe the things I read in the Bible. There is a verse that says, "To he that knows the right thing to do, and does not do it to him it is sin."
I know that this game is more important to me than almost any other thing, and that I should quit. However, I canAC/a,!a,,C/t see it happening. I am not without hope b/c I know that victory is possible.
But I canAC/a,!a,,C/t.... quit...