Gaming time

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Emangun
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Gaming time

Hi, this is my first post on ezboards. I`m not going to reveal any personal details, suffice to say that I am a 21 yr old Canadian male.

BTW I`ve never had a girlfriend, I personally am not a huge fan of dating. If the right girl comes along in the future, great, if not, well I guess that`s ok too. I`m also a Christian so yeah.

I remember playing Mario Bros, Duck Hunt, etc on Nintendo as a very young kid but it wasn`t a big part of my life so I didn`t go on playing. Currently my old NES is gathering dust. (obviously, its so old!)

My family finally got a computer with a CD-ROM in late 1997, and my dad ethusiastically boguht my first real PC game, Age of Empires. (thought it was educational) it wasn`t my idea, I didn`t pressure him, didn`t even know what AOE was until I read the back of the box. What I didn`t know was that I would be able to enter into months of gaming goodness. I was always a big history buff and AOE was the perfect fix. I remember playing it for 3 hours straight after I installed it. Seeing my little blue Shang (Chinese....guess you know my ethnicity now too haha) Empire with villagers running around all busy and a pretty town with a big army made me feel good. I was Emperor of China! Not to mention that AOE had a decent scenario editor, where I put my imagination and creativity to use, making up big battles and such.

The point is, I was always extremely awkward socially. I am diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome and I was always the kid in the corner without any `real` friends. I played AOE whenever I could. It was kinda my little escape into a pseudo-historical world full of military honor and other such concepts completely lacking in school. Surprisingly, I did well throughout high school. One time I had a dissapointing report card and my dad really confronted me, so I straightened up and did all my work. I was a good kid, sometimes even a teacher`s pet.

But my gaming habit got more intense when my sister bought me NHL 99 as a birthday gift. Being Canadian, I ADORED NHL hockey. I would fire up NHL 99, and turn the speakers up loud so I could feel the hard rock music, and I led my virtual Vancouver Canucks to the Stanley Cup. I even recorded myself doing my own play-by-play and commentary on the game! By this time I think I was gaming about 1-2 hours every day and 4-5 hours many Saturdays!

Thankfully, I had (and have) other interests. For example, in high school I discovered the fun to be had actually GOING to NHL hockey games live. I made a lot of friends that way. We all loved hockey and we would go to the Arena (GM Place in Vancouver for those in the know) and take it all in. I also started plahying drums in high school and I have played for my church quite regularly since then. I also went to my high school friend`s youthgroup at his church and made more friends there. So I am a lot improved socially since my awkward junior high days.

As for gaming, its become a regular part of my life. I can go for several weeks without playing, but then I want to play again, so I do. While AOE was a classic, I have since played games such as Rome:Total War, (the entire Total War series in fact) Combat Mission, (WWII-themed wargame)Call of Duty, Rainbow Six and other military or sports-related games. Thankfully I didn`t get too involved in any one game in particular, but I still do play a lot, I think. There have been times (during say Summer holidays) when I started playing Rome:Total War at 6 PM, telling myself that I would finish up at 7. What happens to me then is impossible to describe. I sucumb to the temptation of "just one more turn". I say this to myself, but then there is a rebellion in Gaul... (France) the Egyptians are beseiging Leptis Magna, the Parthians are raiding in the Province of Judaea, the Carthagians are still defying me at sea, and than I just continue playing to solve these "problems." When I finally finish (usually when someone in my family comes home) it is something like 1 am and I'm like "holy crap I played until 1 am?!" And then get all mad at myself. Thankfully, I only do this on non-school days! On school days I do all my work before I even think of going for a quick stint of NHL 2004. And even then, I only ever play one game of NHL before logging off for the night.

However, I tend to go on gaming forums a lot, I don't know if it "feeds" my gaming habit. (Addiction is a strong word. I have read other posts in this forum, and THAT was addiction. I'm glad that I never went that far.) I think about my games a fair bit. I'm not letting them control my life, (I ALWAYS make sure to sleep well and have adequate food. Sometimes the food I get is more than adequate. ) My Parents are out of town all the time now that we're grown up so they couldn't control me. My sister sometimes complains about the time I spend playing, but now my younger cousin from Hong Kong is living with us for school and he plays games a lot too. My friends, even my hockey-watching ones, are all big gamers themselves. So, my question is: Am I psychologically addicted to gaming? Am I psychologically healthy right now?

Sorry for my long post. I usually pride myself on good grammar and spelling, but when it comes to personal affairs I completely lose it grammar-wise. BTW I go to University, so I consider my learning skills to be quite good.

Peace out,

Emangun

Edited by: Emangun at: 11/14/05 16:29

boredhousewife677
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Re: Gaming time

Hi Emangun,

You've asked a question that only you can answer for sure. So here are some more questions (-: Does gaming interfere with your education? I understand you go to university, so does your gaming cause you to cut class, miss deadlines, or lose study time? Does your gaming interfere with your relationships with your family and friends? Do you turn down opportunities to socialize in real life to game instead? Does your gaming affect your health? Do you sleep enough and find the time to eat properly?

Liking games and spending a lot of time playing and thinking about them doesn't make a person an addict. What makes an addict is playing games compulsively, even when they damage relationships, health, work, education - basically negatively impact most or all aspects of real life. Games can be fun and a form of social interaction, but when they begin to take away from real life the problems begin.

Welcome to OLGA Emangun. I hope we can help you figure out the answer to your question.

-Jackie

Emangun
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Re: Gaming time

Thanks for your reply boredhousewife. I do go to University, and I have to work to make sure that gaming does not interfere with my schoolwork. I tend to do all my schoolwork on-campus so that when I go home I can have free time to play games or hang out. (Usually play games b/c none of my friends are as disciplined as me. ) One thing I notice though is that I write term papers very quickly, (and on campus too) and only read through the draft once or twice before I declare it done, so that I can go on and play games. Its not like I'm NOT doing the paper, its that I'm writing it very quickly so that I can have more free time. I've been like that since Elementrary school. When my parents see me playing games and ask me if I have homework and I say no I am not lying. Luckily I have a 3.5 GPA right now in my senior year but I don't know what's going to happen in Grad school should I go there. Unlike a lot of these addicts, I think I am quite aware of my physical needs and priorities. I don't think I've ever played past 1 am, (Not a brag but true) and I really enjoy food (one of my biggest weaknesses) so its never a problem getting me to stop playing to eat. (Apparently I always had a good appetite even as a baby) I try to swim twice a week and I do some brisk walks on our family treadmill (yes our family has a treadmill ) though I can't run because of earlier knee injuries. The only thing I'm really worried about is when gaming or Internet use interferes with my work in Grad school. After 4 years of undergraduate studies I have struck a good balance for undergrads. But what about Grad school? I think games are going to be a part of my life, its pretty set and regular now. But I *THINK* I can handle it.

Peace out

Emangun

BTW I posted this again in the OLGANON for Friends and Family thread, if you want to continue our discussion there feel free to do so.

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