Hi, this is my first post on ezboards. I`m not going to reveal any personal details, suffice to say that I am a 21 yr old Canadian male.
BTW I`ve never had a girlfriend, I personally am not a huge fan of dating. If the right girl comes along in the future, great, if not, well I guess that`s ok too. I`m also a Christian so yeah.
I remember playing Mario Bros, Duck Hunt, etc on Nintendo as a very young kid but it wasn`t a big part of my life so I didn`t go on playing. Currently my old NES is gathering dust. (obviously, its so old!)
My family finally got a computer with a CD-ROM in late 1997, and my dad ethusiastically boguht my first real PC game, Age of Empires. (thought it was educational) it wasn`t my idea, I didn`t pressure him, didn`t even know what AOE was until I read the back of the box. What I didn`t know was that I would be able to enter into months of gaming goodness. I was always a big history buff and AOE was the perfect fix. I remember playing it for 3 hours straight after I installed it. Seeing my little blue Shang (Chinese....guess you know my ethnicity now too haha) Empire with villagers running around all busy and a pretty town with a big army made me feel good. I was Emperor of China! Not to mention that AOE had a decent scenario editor, where I put my imagination and creativity to use, making up big battles and such.
The point is, I was always extremely awkward socially. I am diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome and I was always the kid in the corner without any `real` friends. I played AOE whenever I could. It was kinda my little escape into a pseudo-historical world full of military honor and other such concepts completely lacking in school. Surprisingly, I did well throughout high school. One time I had a dissapointing report card and my dad really confronted me, so I straightened up and did all my work. I was a good kid, sometimes even a teacher`s pet.
But my gaming habit got more intense when my sister bought me NHL 99 as a birthday gift. Being Canadian, I ADORED NHL hockey. I would fire up NHL 99, and turn the speakers up loud so I could feel the hard rock music, and I led my virtual Vancouver Canucks to the Stanley Cup. I even recorded myself doing my own play-by-play and commentary on the game! By this time I think I was gaming about 1-2 hours every day and 4-5 hours many Saturdays!
Thankfully, I had (and have) other interests. For example, in high school I discovered the fun to be had actually GOING to NHL hockey games live. I made a lot of friends that way. We all loved hockey and we would go to the Arena (GM Place in Vancouver for those in the know) and take it all in. I also started plahying drums in high school and I have played for my church quite regularly since then. I also went to my high school friend`s youthgroup at his church and made more friends there. So I am a lot improved socially since my awkward junior high days.
As for gaming, its become a regular part of my life. I can go for several weeks without playing, but then I want to play again, so I do. While AOE was a classic, I have since played games such as Rome:Total War, (the entire Total War series in fact) Combat Mission, (WWII-themed wargame)Call of Duty, Rainbow Six and other military or sports-related games. Thankfully I didn`t get too involved in any one game in particular, but I still do play a lot, I think. There have been times (during say Summer holidays) when I started playing Rome:Total War at 6 PM, telling myself that I would finish up at 7. What happens to me then is impossible to describe. I sucumb to the temptation of "just one more turn". I say this to myself, but then there is a rebellion in Gaul... (France) the Egyptians are beseiging Leptis Magna, the Parthians are raiding in the Province of Judaea, the Carthagians are still defying me at sea, and than I just continue playing to solve these "problems." When I finally finish (usually when someone in my family comes home) it is something like 1 am and I'm like "holy crap I played until 1 am?!" And then get all mad at myself. Thankfully, I only do this on non-school days! On school days I do all my work before I even think of going for a quick stint of NHL 2004. And even then, I only ever play one game of NHL before logging off for the night.
However, I tend to go on gaming forums a lot, I don't know if it "feeds" my gaming habit. (Addiction is a strong word. I have read other posts in this forum, and THAT was addiction. I'm glad that I never went that far.) I think about my games a fair bit. I'm not letting them control my life, (I ALWAYS make sure to sleep well and have adequate food. Sometimes the food I get is more than adequate. ) My Parents are out of town all the time now that we're grown up so they couldn't control me. My sister sometimes complains about the time I spend playing, but now my younger cousin from Hong Kong is living with us for school and he plays games a lot too. My friends, even my hockey-watching ones, are all big gamers themselves. So, my question is: Am I psychologically addicted to gaming? Am I psychologically healthy right now?
Sorry for my long post. I usually pride myself on good grammar and spelling, but when it comes to personal affairs I completely lose it grammar-wise. BTW I go to University, so I consider my learning skills to be quite good.
Edited by: Emangun at: 11/14/05 16:29