II'm new here. SL started as a place to help with film making and descended into a sexual escape from real life. I have told my wife about SL and have been struggling to leave, canceling and re-instating accounts like I change socks. I am a Jesus believing christian and have been so convicted in positive ways to leave. I didn't realize it would become a battle like this. Even destroying my avatars was a struggle. Everything is to easy there, It's such a shame because there is so much good about sl and learning other things building, scripting...etc.But I cant go there without being drawn away to the sensual side of it.
I hate what I've done with SL. It's no ones fault but my own and I willingly pursued sexual encounters and even did my best to seduce women I was attracted to. It's something that was pent up in me before I was even married. I didn't have a a very successful dating life when I was single, so I feel as though I finely had this opportunity to go "sow my oats" when I realized sex was available in the "game". It has been a war all along. It's like I fall under this ether when I'm there and when I meet a girl, the challenge to get her in bed is more than I can resist... I HATE IT!
I hate what I've turned this into, I hate what it does to me inside, I hate walking around with this secret life, that at first was intriguing in a tempting "just try the apple" kind if way. When I bit the fruit, I knew I was in trouble but I've kept making excuses to go back. As I said earlier, I cancelled my accounts once again. It's TO EASY to go back... The first time I "left", I created a nooby account so no women would be attracted to me and I could go about my business visiting sims for film locations. But then I started feeling inadequate because I didn't look good! It's ridicules!
I have a great marriage with an awesome woman. I just need help leaving SL... I need the grace of God, I need his healing... I need his presence. Please pray for me... Thanks for reading this.