This is a long story, but I will try to give the short version. I was in an rp imvu relationship (biker rp) for a few months with this guy. We kept it on imvu mostly but we did eventually exchange skype info. We never cammed, but we did voice chat a few times and I fell in love with him. We got married on imvu and even had a child there. And for me, thats a funny thing because I was always one of those people who thought marriage and kids was a silly thing to do on imvu (I was mostly there for djing until I met him). I didnt mean to, but I really did fall in love with him and he would tell me everyday all these sweet things and how much he loved me. Then one day on skype he was acting weird and finally confessed to me that he was lying to me. He said he really did not love me, he thought I'm a great girl and he cares about me but not love. He said he didnt want to hurt me so he just pretended to love me because he felt heartless to reject me. Smh.
To make a long story short, his best friend told me that he confessed to her that he's in love with her (told her this a few weeks before and she was just watching us feeling sorry for me knowing he wasnt really in love with me). So it went back and forth this way, him telling me that's not true that he doestn love her and her telling me different. I was really hurt because without knowing it I had given him my heart. So I decided to leave imvu. Of course everybody was trying to talk me out of it. I stayed away for 3 days and then one of my friends who kept nagging at me finally got me to come back. She said, dont do anymore rp, just dj and have fun with your friends and forget about him. So I 'divorced' him and tried to do what my friend said. After lots of tears and anger me and him finally had a talk which led to some 'rp sex' causing me to get my hopes up thinking that maybe he wanted to get back together. Instead, he avoided me for 2 days and then suddenly put 'seeing someone' on his profile with another girls name there. A girl I had never even seen before. She joined his rp and changed her last name to his. That was it for me, I just broke down. I put up a message telling everyone that I was going to quit and disable my account.
Of course everyone freaked out trying to talk me out of it. He suddenly came into one of my rooms begging me to stay. I was honest with him and told him I was in love with him and its too hard for me to see him everyday. He tried to convince me to give him my account and let him take care of it until I decide to come back but in the end I really did disable it. People were sending me messages everyday saying its not the same without me and then suddenly I got an email from imvu saying that I could get my account back if I click on this link. One of my close friends on imvu told me that her account got hacked and she couldn't see her boyfriend on there. So suddenly I got the idea to click the link and get my account back and give it to her. I had an alt account lying around somewhere and she convinced me to get on it and hang out with her one day to play music. Nobody else knew who I was so I was able to hide on it, but being on that account I cound not stop the urge to look at my ex's profile, which only set me back and brought back the anger and the hurt. So I came up with this idea to pretend I was seeing someone else to make him jealous. I got my account back from my friend (later she admitted that her account wasn't hacked, she just wanted to get me to come back) and I changed my profile putting that I was seeing someone. Of course everyone was happy I was back and I resumed djing with friends. But then 3 days back in the game, I just realized to myself that I didnt want to do this anymore. I didnt' want to pretend I was ok and live this fake life anymore. The truth is I had fallen in love with this guy who I would never have irl (he was from another country). He had made it clear to me that he didnt' love me; the one thing I knew was that he liked me a little and liked having rp sex, but he was so quick to get someone new...I was tired of being angry and paranoid and hopeful and sad all wrapped in one. I decided to focus on rl and find someone irl.
Before I fell in love with him I was the type of person who thought imvu relationships were silly and that I woud never fall in love on imvu. Well I was trapped with all these feelings, seeing him on skype and imvu was so hard. So about 3 days ago, this time without telling anyone, I gave my account away to a trusted friend. He changed the password and I toldhim he coud do whatever he wanted with it. I disabled my alt account as well. Being away from imvu has helped me and each day that I'm away I feel stronger, but there is still a part of me that feels sad whenever my ex messages me on skype. I find myself wondering if he ever really felt anything for me besides occasional jealousy and some lust. But actions speak louder than words and I know obsessing over him wont help anything. He is still there in that rp world, and I dont want any part of it. I want to focus on real. I'm proud of myself for leaving, but now I'm just trying to forget this guy and get some self-respect. Sorry for the long ramble x.x