I'm not exactly sure if I should be posting here, or not. I haven't logged into my game in four days now, and it wasn't out of any conscious decision to quit.
I bought FFXI for me after i quit my job, and after i've had a nervous breakdown and ended up with depressed for months. That problem had nothing to do with gaming, in fact, before I bought FFXI, last video game I played was years earlier, and it was Tomb Raider III. I always liked FF games (to be honest, I only beat two of them. I guess I was never that good at them.)
I did like video games, but more the Tekken/Time Crisis type that I could play with my bf or siblings.
So.. I bought FFXI, and logged on. It... relaxed me. It was a virtual vacation from stress and RL, and it was great. I got to talk to people and play, I leveled up..eh.
I had other hobbies, before. I can't quite get the focus enough to do any of them now, though. I don't even watch movies/TV anymore. I don't read books, I don't go out much. I liked playing... but lately, I log on and it feels like an neverending series of responsibilities for the other players. (I promised to do quest/mission/level...) So, I didn't log on.
I found that I'm not interested in anything else. Console games don't really interest me. TV doesn't, books don't, the news don't, going out doesn't interest me... I end up thinking about playing, about getting new items and unlocking areas, about the other players.
I know that I'm not depressed anymore, not the way I was two years ago. I checked my playtime earlier this week, and it said 209days.
That's a lot of time that I've spent playing. It's a scary number, actually. It's almost a full year.
I'm just not sure what to do now. Do I just never log in again?