This addiction is concerning Runescape.
To start off I am not a level 126 member who plays xxx hours per week. I havent lost freinds due to runescape and it was a moderate-high addiction.
I have started playing this game since I was 11. From the daycare afterschool I went where everyone literally played it. Back then the game was vibrant and the music heart-touching.
The max level I reached was 30 and I was a member for one month.
Fast forward 4 years I started playing again but from scratch since I couldnt recover my account. When the wlderness and free trade was gone I quit.
Now the story starts.... It was Febuary 2012 when free trade and wilderness came back. Prices of every item were increasing and the major recession was ending. The developers of the game started combatting bots ever and it was a good time to start playing.
Until June I have made a clan of 150 people with its own dedicated website I created. I have made several good freinds, got to level 60 and on one occasion got a free level 122 account for 7 days I had control over (no items within it though).
During the summer I decided to become a member. Now this was the time I became addicted to the game. I bought membership for myself and completed dozens of quests. Reached a total skill level of 1500 and reached level 80. I harnessed 10M of coins. But my final year of highschool approached and I had to quit if I wanted to go into university.
I realized that because there was so much to do in membership I lost all my RS freinds to time devoted to quests and member-skills. Membership is dynamic and there is no free time unless your at the top to communicate with people.
At the end of the summer I gave away all my money, and the clan which had 130 people in it who were mostly inactive to my last freind in the game. I then quit regretfully losing my membership and now its January. A year anniversy.
I am buried in work yet now have this urge to play the game. Yet every time I log in Im left with nothing since what I did was so effective.
I am in love with the music of the game and dont buy into the stigma of the game. I had a girlfreind, high marks and a couple of freinds (half who werent gamers) when I played it and openly could say I slay dragons in falador ect..
Now I want to spend my money on coins/membership to get me back to where I was.
I daydream about the music and have a blissful moment when I rmemebered walking through the square when I was 11 or all the good times I had playing with my online freinds.
What is this? Why?
Right now I still play 1-2 hours daily of other games- maybe to compensate for the deep rooted obsession I had of this game. Rationally I dont want to be max level in RS since its pointless and my real life is more important.