My life has been non-existent. I spend pretty much every waking hour playing Dota or on the computer watching movies in some sort of way. I can't get out of my life style and I keep pushing my family away. I lie to everyone I know, they have no clue how pathetic and sad my life is, I lie about having a job, about having a life but I have nothing. I would be on the streets if it weren't for my father taking care of me and paying for my expenses. I've been chasing the dream of being a big deal on twitch for years and for a while I thought I was going to make it, but my poor attitude and the way I push people away ruined everything for me. I've been dwelling in my own depression and sadness for years and I don't know how to change.
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