Ive known I had a problem for a long time...
It all started when I was about 10yo or so when I was given a couple of simple hand held games, then Atari, then PC, playing games like Civilization and other city/empire building strategic games and now spent the last few years solidly playing 'Clash of Clans' on my phone (I'm not even sure why Ive wasted so much of my time on this game in particular as I see it as such a completely moronic game, endlessly grinding away 'to build stuff' - no strategy, no thought, no skill - though of course other players have told me it takes skill) always beholden to it (as it's online) when my past games I could just turn off and forget about it, though I guess in the end they have all been more or less the same waste of time.
Computer games are partly the reason why my wife left me.
Computer games are partly the reason why I have no friends.
Computer games are partly the reason I have no real career.
Theres so many countless times Ive just sat down and played computer games the entire day or night or week/s or months, my mind being whole heartedly consumed by it, living in this fantasy world where I am in total control, I look back and Ive acheived so little in reality... Ive wasted my life.
I am a colossal failure in real life terms. I live back at my parents house with no job presently. These last few years with 'Clash of Clans' app game has particurlarly taken a toll on me, constantly having the urge to check on the village/clan despite receiving no notifications from the game that anything had happened. Ive had some months without it here and there, so tired at times of the endless, mindless grinding away collecting resources, but Ive always returned to "just check in"... and find myself back in it 24/7. Ive spent very little real money on it, about $100, but Ive spent 1000's of valuable hours wasting away my life for pixelated nonsense.
I know I am already on my way to some form of recovery though, enjoying beautiful sunrises, sun sets and long walks in nature... and I know God is there to help turn everything around, I just wanted to share my story.
I hate vain computer games, such a meaningless existence, such a colossal waste of time for zero real life reward.
I hope this story helps someone.
I don't have to be a slave to pixels anymore, I can get my fixes enjoying real life!