I got called out by my wife yesterday about my gaming. Not any particular game - I have a lot of them on Steam. Anyway, I finally admitted to myself that there was a problem. I've been dancing around the issue for years now, telling myself that I had it under control - that it was just a hobby and a fun way to relax. But I'm not doing so well with it lately.
So I'm pretty much freaking out right now. I've uninstalled my current game but I own hundreds of them and I'm really worried about what I'm going to do or what I'm going to lose. I've been using gaming as a way to have something simple that I can control in my life, but lately, it's been all the time. I'm not getting any work done. My hobbies are all dusty. I've isolated myself from my family. It's a mess. I'm a mess.
I've read a bunch of posts here and all I feel is more discouraged. People talking about how it's harder to give up than drugs or alcohol - not giving me a lot of warm-and-fuzzies, you know?
(I'm totally rambling now. But it's taken almost 24 hours to work up the courage to just start typing so I'm going to keep going.)
I don't know what to do next. I've been using gaming to cope with my stress and anxiety so I feel lost right now. I'm super anxious, but don't have my Drug of Choice (DOC). Oh yeah, that's the super fun irony - I work in a drug and alcohol rehab for teenagers. So I'm looking at myself like I'm one of them and that scares me too.
I'm going to work with a therapist (already called him). I'm going to go to the chatrooms (already setup hardware/software/accounts). I'm probably going to clean and rearrange my home-office/man-cave - do some physical activity. My wife stayed home from work to help me today, but heck if I know what to have her do for or with me!
BTW - My handle here isn't a gaming nickname - it's one my friends gave me. There's no problem a Chainsaw can't solve. But I'm not feeling that confidence today - let me tell ya!