Tonight I made my first steps tonight to try to do something about my gaming problem, and now my eyes are still wet from saying goodbye to people who have been my online friends for the last two years.
I started playing Minecraft as an adult about two and a half years ago after seeing a story on the BBC website about it being bought by Microsoft. At first I played single player and then I had the courage to try multi-player and immediately found an amazing PVE server with many lovely people. I went through many ups and downs during about 18 months that I played on the server, and think I played over 2,200 hours during that time.
At first I was very happy and loved the new friendships, but over time I started getting quite upset about some things that happened in the game like griefing and personality clashes. I left the game and came back twice, but each time I felt more unhappy. In between leaving and returning I tried some other games but tired of each one after a few months. All the time that I was away I missed the Minecraft server and my friends there.
Right now it still feels like I could easily log in and greet my online friends, and get involved in a new build project. So my first steps tonight were to give everything I owned on the server to another player, say a tearful goodbye, and then message the admins to ask them to ban me and suspend my forum account.
I have some plans to try and fill my new free time with other things that I love like reading, skating, and visiting interesting places. Over the last two years I think my friendships, work, and sport have all suffered a lot due to the amount of time I spent gaming. I only realised I was a ganming addict this morning after reading the OLG-Anon forums. The personal stories that I read helped me to make a decision to do something about my problem. I don't know how difficult this is going to be, and I don't know what help I will need, but I suspect the road ahead will not be easy for a while.
thank you for listening,