I am an adult male and I have a long term computer game addiction. I also suffer from severe depression and have suicidal thoughts.
I can pinpoint the time computer games became a serious problem to about 7 years ago. Since then I have had a daughter who is now 5. I split up with my partner a few months ago and I have come to the realisation that my addiction to computer games contributed massively to the decline in my relationship.
I have been full time home parent for my daughter for her whole life and the loneliness and isolation of this situation caused me to play more and more games and spend more and more time playing. I will often play games late into the night and then be exhausted for the time with my daughter.
I had a bit of a wake up call recently where I have become so isolated from my friends that my ex partner of 15 years has started seeing one of my friends and all my friends lied to me about it.
This has made me delete all the game apps from my phone and I've gone almost cold turkey for the last few nights.
As I become more aware of the severity of the problem, I realise the huge impact it has had on my life.
I have had times of feeling very suicidal and depressed. I need to stop but I'm scared that I won't be able to cope. I need help.
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