I have the worst case of gaming addiction

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joseph555
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I have the worst case of gaming addiction

If there was a rating for the highest form of gaming addiction, I would belong in that group. 

Stage 1: Not an addiction. Plays games on a mild occasion

Stage 2: Plays games to blow off steam, usually plays lots of games when stressed like women eating icecream. This can become problematic but this depends on the person.

Stage 3: Thinks about games sometimes and plays it occasionally. But this is small signs of possible addiction in the future. Some may think thinking about games is less addicting sign than what Stage 2 shows but this is actually a very big step towards addiction because it leads to creative thinking about games. This stage describes how children can be effected with gaming in the future.

Stage 4: The achiever. Needs to get the achievements and perfect the game in all ways. Though I would say Stage 3 can still get worst than this. The achiever can care less about the integrity of the game but it's still an addiction nonetheless. Stage 4 types however can still be somewhat sociable but not fit in the cred of what people consider normal social behavior. Many times an achiever does this to get the approval of others. This starts meandering into online gaming since there they can show off more.

Stage 5: The dreamer. This is possibly the worst stage of gaming addiction. The dreamer is someone that puts all his achievements into the game, his creativity is expounded into the gaming. Though his creativity is great and can be used for greater things in life he wastes it on the game. The dreamer likes to imagine what would make a better game and such. The dreamer can survive in real life if he becomes a game programmer or such but if he doesn't he will fail at life. Dreamers are typically in the format of MMORPGamers and like having games with lots of customization options. I'm stage 5.

 

I'm sorry I guess my "creativity" or whatsoever had me make those stages.... but I'll just say I'm a 29 year old with nothing going on his life stuck on some serious MMORPG gaming addiction. I want to get into grad school but I don't even have the faintest idea of the GRE and a lot of other requirements to get in. My GPA is horrible, the only work I've ever done with minor lab internships and I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't have any friends since I burned the bridges to many and I'm in need of help.

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Welcome Joseph and for

Welcome Joseph and for sharing your thoughts.

There is lots of experience and ideas here  from other gamers that I hope will help you get off gaming.

 

 

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Hi Joseph, glad you found us

Hi Joseph, glad you found us here!  There is help, you'll find it in the meetings.

http://www.olganon.org/forum/line-meetings-message-board/all-online-meetings-computervideo-gaming-addicts

Come listen, find out what other people have done to stay off games long-term and turn their lives around for the better.  Hey, if we can do it, you can too.  You deserve it.

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Welcome Joseph

Welcome Joseph!

I too was a low bottom gaming addict, stage 4 or maybe worse even.  When I found Olga, my life had become a pattern of getting through whatever responsibilities I had each day as fast as I could in order to get back to gaming.  50% or more of every day I spent alone in the same small room playing the current MMO I was in, or one of the hundreds of Steam games I had.  I had lost interest and ambition in anything outside of gaming.  Each day was like that movie "Groundhog Day" - a repeat of the day before.  My gaming friends had become the only "real" friends I had.  When I wasn't gaming I had the sense my life was going nowhere and felt anxiety and despair which I solved by simply gaming more, maxing out more characters, becoming better and better ingame in order to feel some sense of control and achievement and self-esteem.  The enthusiasm and excitement I had once had for my work (I'm a Chemist, developing new products) was gone, and as much as I knew I needed to put effort back into my real life accomplishments, the desire to do so wasn't there anymore.  So much of what you mentioned I can relate to.  I too felt as if I had ruined my life and yet couldn't pull out of it.  I literally lived for gaming when I found Olga.

The good news is that was over a year and a half ago.  I am free today.  I am back working in the lab developing things and when not working am thinking of the new product I want to make.  I rarely even think of gaming.  The change is literally miraculous.  What I did was simply found Olga, began coming to the online meetings daily.  I found others in the meetings who shared their experiences of going through exactly what I had and for the first time I not only didn't feel ashamed and unique with my gaming problem, but I felt hope.  I began to understand that "I" alone couldn't pull out of this addiction but now had a "we" in this fellowship.  I got a sponsor and replaced the time I was spending gaming with putting my energy into working the recovery program and continuing to come to the meetings.  I deleted all games and unfriended all gaming friends.  The first 10 days were agonizing withdrawal - I could not have done it alone.  The group of people in this fellowship were like a lifeline I clung to.  After a few weeks of coming to meetings each day, getting to know people in this fellowship, not gaming, I began to see new people such as yourself coming in who were where I had been and it made me see I was making progress and being able to throw a lifeline out to them, like yourself, gave me a sense of value.  As I worked the 12 step program others here had done, I was freed of the obsession and desire to game.  Today I continue to go to alot of the meetings here each week - not every day as I did when I first got here, because I've gotten a life back, but to keep it, I have to pass it on.  I see you are in the US West Coast.  We have a number of people in the fellowship from your area - one of them, Orchid, leads the Friday 1:30pm EST meeting.  Many come to the 10pm EST meeting from the list/link  Ritchy pasted above.  Your not alone.  Your story is not unique - you will be amazed how many people share having gone through exactly what you are.  They/we can help.  Hope to see you in one of the meetings!

Hugs, Lisa Video game free since 4/17/2014

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