I might be rare among this group because I'm still a high school student. I joined this community about a month ago when searching for ways to stop gaming, but I haven't had enough courage to talk about my troubles with gaming. In fact, I haven't directly talked about my excessive gaming habit with anyone except my family doctor, and only once. My doctor told me to talk to a counselor at my school, but I haven't done that either.
I believe my excessive gaming habits started in January of 2015, almost exactly a year ago, when my friend after school urged me to play with him on an online game that seemed quite funny and useless. I told him I wouldn't do it, but he pleaded me for ten minutes to just watch him play. I was sort of curious then, so I went home and started playing that game as well, and within a week I already couldn't control myself, and was jealous of my friends who could control themselves easily and finish homework on time. But I couldn't put homework before games, so often I started to push major assignments back until the due date, before which I would work till 3 am to finish a research paper. I felt guilty for what I'd done, but I knew that that feeling only worsened the problem.
For this whole year, I haven't been able to even abstain from games and wasting time on the internet for two consecutive days. Last year, I could still hold everything together, but, now, my habit is so bad that my grades are not as good as they were throughout my life, which were always A's. Now I am getting B's and B+'s easily, and I know it's all because of time wasted for gaming.
I have been trying to stop my destructive addiction since last summer, but I've tried dozens of strategies and none worked for more than a day. I am now at a boarding school that is even more stressful and rigorous than before, which again makes me want to seek the temporary refuge in gaming. I am using the application called SelfControl to block all the gaming websites, but once the 24-hour block expires, I play again until necessity forces me to finish my homework. I am struggling more than ever right now to keep up with my homework, extracurricular activities, and other obligations. I know that if I just stop gaming completely, I would be able to easily accomplish everything else.
I've thought through my problem many times, and what seems to be most helpful right now is asking help from others, and that's what I'll do here. I just want to put my thoughts out here and see what you guys think of them.
(I'll work on my homework now.)
P.S. Is a complete recovery is still possible right now? I'm still optimistic, if that's all I have left.
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