I'm not at my computer right now so I'll be brief.
I turned 40 in January. I have been an excessive gamer since I was a kid. I started on the Atari 2600 and have owned and compulsively played video games my entire life. I have let them hold me back in school, in relationships (lost my first true love to them) and life in general. I have known that I had a problem for years. Even when I was around 18 I knew and I took a hammer to the consoles I had at the time. Sadly, my addiction has been so bad that I ended up right back into gaming when the next consoles came out. I have been gaming for hours a day for my entire life.
I'm glad I found this site. I know this isn't going to be easy but I truly want to quit. Part of me feels absolutely pathetic. It's not like I have a heroin addiction or something! However, I do know that I have ruined many relationships and wasted years and years of my life doing nothing but staring at a tv with a controller in my hands. I realize I have no control over myself. I know myself well enough to know that I have to go cold turkey. There is no way I could play video games recreationally. It's all or nothing. Starting today I'm going to try and repair my life and try not to waste what time I have left. I'm currently married as well I should mention. We've been fighting over this very thing for the last few years. A part of me feels like it's to late to save our marriage but I really hope that taking this step will help to mend things between us.
I have a boat load of regrets in life. Almost all of them are because I chose video games over real life. I have a lot of shame I carry around as a result.
Anyway, that's enough for now. I haven't played any games so far today and I intend to keep it that way.
Thanks for listening.