I started playing video games when I was just about 5 or 6. I remember it started with a Gameboy color and moved to a N64 then a PS2. I remember the enjoyment and escape I felt even at a young age. I ran home from school to jump on whatever game I was playing. I could not put my Gameboy down and took it with me to school just to get taken away from me.
From there I progressed to computer based gaming in high school. My friends in high school were definitely encouraging with my video game habit. We would skip class and go to each other's homes with laptops, play music and video games all day. It seemed fairly harmless at this time. Maybe because I had no real maturity and maybe because I played "socially" lol. But then this GS turn bad.
I could have gone to any college I wanted to but had no desire to. I could have done a lot of things differently but once again, the desire was not there. The only desire I had was to play World of Warcraft. I noticed I did not see a lot of mentions of specific games but this game is the source of problem today I think. At the beginning the quest for the best gear and beat rank was fun. I feel like I am still searching for that first rush but can never quite get there. I spend 12+ everyday playing this game sometimes. I work from home and it is becoming easier for me to find myself on the game all the time.
I stopped reaching out to my friends, stopped talking to people all together and became miserable. The only thing keeping me motivated to stay alive was the entertainment of video games. Today I feel like I am in a better place but still feel like I can not stop playing g. I have resolution after resolution to stop playing as much and never follow through. I feel powerless to stop. I have a sense that I know I would be a better and happy person if stopped but just can not do it. Please help.