I am 43 years old and addicted to playing World of Warcraft. I have been playing the game for 10 years now and currently spend around 40+ hours a week on it. I say "currently" because before I met my wife I spent more time on it. My days consists of work (8am-5pm), dinner with my wife at around 6pm and then the game from about 6:30pm till around 12am, some times later. The weekends are worse, some nights I will go 12 hours straight, my wife will be getting up when I am heading to bed.
I did not admit I have a problem until about a year ago when I finally started to take notice that I was spending way to much time on the game. My moods haved changed dramatically. I used to be carefree and now everything and anything makes me stress out. I cry or get angry at the littlest things. I also get very depressed. I did not take notice of any of this until I one day when I lost my temper and started screaming at my wife. This scared me quite a bit as I have never been a person to yell or get violent. I felt so guilty afterwards when I saw the scared look in my wifes eyes. My wife is a big reason I have been able to take notice of my problem and a big reason I seeking help.
I met my wife over the internet through a dating site. At the time we lived 4 hours away from each other. We chatted online almost every night for a good 3 months or so and decided to meet face to face one day. I drove the 4 hours to meet her and repeated the trip every weekend for about a year. (Note: I would play World of Warcraft while we were chatting during the week. On the weekends I would not doing any gaming at all when I was with her.) I eventually moved in with her and the computer with World of Warcraft came with me. This is when my wife took notice of that I had a "problem". I started to spend more time with the game then with her and our relationship started to suffer. Despite my problem we got married and have been together for almost 5 years now.
There have been lots of happy times for us, but it is always been overshadowed by my need to play the game. The time spend with her is sorrily lacking in and out of the bedroom. When we first got together we were going to start a family ASAP, but that has not happend because of me. The things we enjoyed together as couple we no longer do because I cannot pull myself away from the game for an extended amount of time. My wife is a trooper and pushes on, but I dont see her being able to "push on" much longer and I could not handle her leaving me.
I did try to quit about a year ago. I deleted the game from my computer and threw anything to do with the game in the trash. I made it for about 5 months without playing the game (I did play other games, but did not spend the same amount of time on them.) Into the 5 month of being World of Warcraft free I came acrossed an ad that a new expansion was being released for it. Even though I had not played it for 5 months I got the urge to return and I did. This brings me to where I am now, scared and upset that I lost control enough to yell at my wife. My wife is the world to me and I need to get my life back on track for myself and for her. I haved tried to do this on my own and failed, so now I find myself turning to others. Please help me save myself and my marriage.