I've been binge gaming for almost 5 years now. I've played multiple days in a row countless times and recently it's gotten much worse. I am a father of two and married. I work away from home but get 4 or 5 days off at a time. And those days off are spent on my game. When I do get off my game I constantly think about my next session or my previous session. I've stopped associating with my real life friends, family, and co workers. My love for fishing and motor sports has vanished. My hygiene has gotten worse. My chores around the house never get done. I neglect my vehicle upkeep which I used to be very uptight about. I've called in to work just to play games. Taken vacation to play.
I look in the mirror and feel empty. I want help but the thought of completely giving up gaming isn't sounding viable right now. I miss the person I once was when before my passion for gaming turned into this life robbing disease.
I feel like a child when my wife and I talk about my addiction. I never thought there was even a possibility to be addicted to gaming in this type of way. When I hear about the comments my parent in laws say about me gaming it infuriates me. They don't know what it's like. No one knows besides the ones who suffer from or have in the past. I've had a gambling addiction, drug addiction, and alcohol addiction. Those were easier to give up than this. I think maybe because games are so much easier to obtain? Games can be available almost anywhere.
I want to get better and still game. I have to find a happy medium. I don't want to give it up completely. I remember playing games as far back as I can remember and the joy it brought me helped me escape the miserable life I lived as kid. Through my life, games helped me cope. Or atleast forget.
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