Before I begin I have to apoligize for my rusty english (it's not my native language, but i will try to explain everything that bothers me as clearly as i can)
I'm 22 years old adult. 1 year ago i moved out from my parents to start studying in other city. This is the time where my problem become more serious. I started living on my own. Had only one resposibility - studying, but after 2 months i just gave it up just for playing an mmo game. I've been playing before but my parents had a bit control over me when i lived with them, but now they dont. Shortly after i found amazing community in my game that im playing with till today. But after spending more than 10 hours daily playing the game for almost a year i started realising thats something is wrong with me. I don't want to do anything basically. I don't want to play the game but I'm still doing it. I dont have motivation to do anything. I'm starting studying again in 3 weeks and im really afraid that i wont handle it again. I lied to my parents that i've passed 1st year. i feel really teribble because of that but i don't have balls to tell them what i did so im drowning into that lie deeper and deeper. The biggest problem is that i never knew what i want to do in my life. Thats why i started playing online games because the are endless and i could escape from real life problems. I always felt like i dont belong to people from my class in school. I've been bullied in primary and seconday school. Now, when im an adult i can't handle any serious decision on my own . When i have to do something, i would rather delay it till the last day or dont do it at all. I feel really odd when i go into a streets for even stuppid shgopping. I cant accept myself, i just hate myslef for what happened to me and what i have done. I want to start living, do something, i just dont know what. Please tell me whats wrong with me.