I have 21+ years sober from alcohol and 10+ sober from gambling for money but I am finding myself playing online casino video games compulsively and it feels like addiction to me. I do it to mood alter and I am scared because it seems like I no sooner get clean from one addiction and I develop a cross-addiction. It is like I have an empty hole in my soul and such a deep feeling of pain and shame that I will seize anything mood altering and take it to the limit and beyond. My job has been causing me to neglect myself and many other things in my life (this is not just me, everybody who does what I do has to struggle with this, just trust me on that). I am aware of my part in the unmanageability of my life but that just makes me want to mood alter even more - shame, guilt, escape. I need help. Anybody else relate?