I have been in Second life, for nearly 9 years. I have spent sometimes 18 hours a day living in a virtual world. Recently I have come to the realization I must break free. I can no longer be a prisoner inside this game. In my mind, Second life is better than my real life. In the game I am whatever and whomever I want to be. A year ago I got involved with a motorcycle club in Second Life. I met a man and we fell in love. Yes it is possible to fall in love in a virtual world. Our relationship in SL was everything my RL relationship with myhusband is not. Every morning I woke up to "good morning beautiful" and every night I went to bed with the sweetest of goodnights. On Feb 14, 2017 it all came crashing down around me. You see people in SL can be cruel and hateful. I have always made it a point to not allow my Real Life information into Second Life. I was very careful not to give anyone any personal information, instead I made an alter ego to protect my real life. One of those cruel and hateful people found me by getting my phone number from Skype then finding my Facebook page. They then made the threat of telling this man I so deeply cared for who I really was. Instead I thought it was best to tell him first. As you can imagine, after a year he was not happy, in fact he was hurt beyond belief. I wasted a year of his life and allowed him to fall in love with someone he couldnt have. He shared so much of his personal life with me and I shared mostly my made up life with him. My heart breaks for him and for me also. How do I stop the pain, how do I not go back, how do I fix me??? How do I find my real life again, How do I stop missing him, how do I not resist the urge to call him just to hear his voice? I have been very good about concealing how deeply addicted to the game I am from my husband. I did confide in him yesterday I was addicted and needed to stop. He has been very understanding and has tried to help me however, my tears keep falling for the man I lost but never touched. Please help.... it has been 24 hours and I want to sign on so badly and beg for forgiveness but I know I cannot do that and expect to recover. I have read some of the threads regarding secondlife but they all seem to be from years ago. Is anyone else struggling with this?
Sad in Florida :(