I've been playing Final Fantasy Brave Exvius since it was launched in the United States.
It's a game based on traditional Final Fantasy games that features a "Gacha" (basically, a 25 cent machine random reward mechanic) system for using premium currency to buy units (heroes) that allow you to progress in the game.
It also has a "stamina" mechanic so that people are forced to check in regularly and spend the stamina (which recharges one stamina point per 5 minutes) or "waste" the stamina and not progress in the game.
I'm working full time and going to school full time with a wife and three kids. Recently, I realized I was spending way too much time playing this game. I was trying to play it in the background while studying so that I wouldn't waste stamina.
I have local friends who play with me and that's what had been driving me to continue playing. This game's a single player game but comparing "rare pulls" from the gacha with friends can feel very rewarding, despite how shallow it is.
I quit cold turkey a week ago when things came to a head. I had a 10 page research paper to write, kids were sick, and the game had become a long grindy chore to play.
I felt great for a week. However, I just learned from one of my friends that the game has released an update that isn't a grind, it's a play-once-and-get-the-rewards event. They've also released a best-in-class item that was the same item type from a previous event that I failed to get. With it, any magic user I have on my team has incredible stats. The event this item is from is limited to the next week. If I don't get the item during this time period, I won't get it ever.
I say all this to explain why I'm coming here today. I'm very tempted to start playing this game again. I understand intellectually that this game has next to no value when compared to the big picture of my life. Playing it feels like a compulsion. I wasn't even enjoying it when I was playing.
I need help. At the very least, I need kind words of encouragement to counter the words from my friends who are still playing the game. I really don't want to play it again, but I can literally feel different parts of my brain struggling with this decision. It's definitely the addiction trying to resurface.