It is time I face this obsessive addiction. I've been playing 10-30 hour sessions since I was 8 years old. I am 21 years old now, have no car, no job, live with my mother, and only have 2 remaining friends in the real world. I lost my last girlfriend to this, and my current one is not far off from being fed up with me playing games instead of talking to her. I've neglected hygiene for so long now, It feels normal. I was forgetting to eat, excersize, talk to family and friends, and ultimately just became a complete shut in. Never leaving the house aside from the occasional trip to 7/11 for months on end.
There is not a day that has gone by, since I started gaming, that I did not play at least one game. I left the online community I was a part of two days ago, and uninstalled every game I have. When I was in the process of giving everything I earned over the past 5 years in my favorite online game, I was shaking and in hysterics. I could not sleep for 36 hours. When I woke up this morning I had the shakes, so bad it reminded me of when I was an alcoholic. My anxiety is through the roof as well.
To keep myself from playing games, I have been doing anything I can to keep my mind busy. Working on various broken electronics around the house, stripping the electronics that can't be fixed, drawing, and conversating with the few friends I have left. So far, this is preventing me from falling into temptation and reinstalling a game.
What lead me to make this decision, was seeing my little brother completely fall apart because his computer froze in the middle of a game. That's when I realized he is following in my footsteps, and I needed to change. I begun doing research about the effects of video games on the mind, and what I would be facing when I quit. That's when I found this website, learned that video games can actually be physically addictive, and the fact I would be facing physical and mental withdrawals.
Originally I was going to post here yesterday, but I was unable to get my thoughts together and make a post.