The Time Has Come

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Zeratul420
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The Time Has Come

It is time I face this obsessive addiction. I've been playing 10-30 hour sessions since I was 8 years old. I am 21 years old now, have no car, no job, live with my mother, and only have 2 remaining friends in the real world. I lost my last girlfriend to this, and my current one is not far off from being fed up with me playing games instead of talking to her.  I've neglected hygiene for so long now, It feels normal. I was forgetting to eat, excersize, talk to family and friends, and ultimately just became a complete shut in. Never leaving the house aside from the occasional trip to 7/11 for months on end.

There is not a day that has gone by, since I started gaming, that I did not play at least one game. I left the online community I was a part of two days ago, and uninstalled every game I have. When I was in the process of giving everything I earned over the past 5 years in my favorite online game, I was shaking and in hysterics. I could not sleep for 36 hours. When I woke up this morning I had the shakes, so bad it reminded me of when I was an alcoholic. My anxiety is through the roof as well.

To keep myself from playing games, I have been doing anything I can to keep my mind busy. Working on various broken electronics around the house, stripping the electronics that can't be fixed, drawing, and conversating with the few friends I have left. So far, this is preventing me from falling into temptation and reinstalling a game.

What lead me to make this decision, was seeing my little brother completely fall apart because his computer froze in the middle of a game. That's when I realized he is following in my footsteps, and I needed to change. I begun doing research about the effects of video games on the mind, and what I would be facing when I quit. That's when I found this website, learned that video games can actually be physically addictive, and the fact I would be facing physical and mental withdrawals.

Originally I was going to post here yesterday, but I was unable to get my thoughts together and make a post.

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Welcome to OLGA Zeratul

Welcome to OLGA Zeratul

Thanks for sharing your story with us

I'm glad you are here and on your journey.

All the best to you.

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Welcome Cody.  I too felt

Welcome Cody.  I too felt strong physical and mental withdrawal effects when I stopped gaming for a time.  That's one reason I kept going back to it.  As bad as my life felt when gaming it away, at least I wasn't consciously suffering while I was lost in the games.

The meetings really helped pull me through those tough times, past the withdrawal pains, and through to the other side.  Life is far better today and most of the withdrawal stuff has passed, although I do still get urges from time to time.  Hope to see you at a meeting sometime.

http://www.olganon.org/forum/line-meetings-message-board/all-online-meetings-computervideo-gaming-addicts

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I've noticed I'm happier and

I've noticed I'm happier and more productive already. I'm still experiancing a pull towards reinstalling the games, and an occasional migraine. But the anxiety spikes and weird, almost euphoric moments are fading away. My ability to sleep is improving as well. Surprisingly I haven't dreamed of games yet.

I do know there is a long road ahead of me, with good and bad days. I will see about going to a meeting when possible, as right now I'm handling a lot of things I've procrastinated over the years.

Edit: I have a lot of apologies to make as well.

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Welcome to olga! A sponsor

Welcome to olga! A sponsor has been very helpful in my recovery, i recommend it!

Never alone, go to meetings <3 Mumble voice meetings on cgaa are great, see you there <3

 

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