I was here a few years back, trying to qut gaming. I ended going back, and I have tryed quitting once after that time. And I gave in again. I talked myself into.. moderation.. and of course that didnt work. Im not to the point where I stay up at night late, or miss work. But I have done the stay up late playing in that past years ago. What really botheres me is how I feel like the gaming is controlling me. Like i have no choice in the matter. I get annoyed at being interupted while playing. I dont like going out to do nomral stuff like get gas, or go to a store. That takes away from my gaming time.
But the main thing that has changed from the last time i was here, I found out my daughter tried killing herself, and more then once. Shes depressed and has bad anxiety. She had been saying things like "Your sure playing a lot," Which made me start opening my eyes. She admitted to me she is afraid when she gets on SSI that I wont want to go shopping with her, or play board games with her. (she was really excited about playing board games with me) lol Because she knows I hate getting away from the game. She's 23 years old, and cant go into public alone. she has panic attacks, and freezes up when people talk to her, so I have to go with her. Shes on meds for it. She seeing a therepist. And I am not helping her much at all, just sitting and playing my games 4 or 5 hours a day and more on my days off work. So I think I really need to just quit them.
So I think its time for me to get help too, and finally quit gaming. It makes me have a sinking stomach even thinking about not ever playing again. Today is day one from no gaming. I decided to do this yesterday. So I deleted my games on my pc and on my phone.
I know last time I got bored and thats why it was so easy for me to tempted back to playing. But this time I have a diffrent reason to quit. Plus we have recently bought a puppy border collie. High matience dog, full of energy, so she will force us to leave the house and walk around. We have been training her too. she takes a lot of our time.
I am so scared that I will give in. I know moderation dont work. I have tried it to many times. lol So i am coming here to just see how other people are doing, and for the support. I dont think I can do this on my own.