Trying again..

9 posts / 0 new
Last post
ladylindael
Offline
Last seen: 2 years 6 months ago
OLGA member
Joined: 08/04/2013 - 2:56pm
Trying again..

I was here a few years back, trying to qut gaming. I ended going back, and I have tryed quitting once after that time. And I gave in again. I talked myself into.. moderation.. and of course that didnt work. Im not to the point where I stay up at night late, or miss work. But I have done the stay up late playing in that past years ago. What really botheres me is how I feel like the gaming is controlling me. Like i have no choice in the matter. I get annoyed at being interupted while playing. I dont like going out to do nomral stuff like get gas, or go to a store. That takes away from my gaming time.

But the main thing that has changed from the last time i was here, I found out my daughter tried killing herself, and more then once. Shes depressed and has bad anxiety. She had been saying things like "Your sure playing a lot," Which made me start opening my eyes. She admitted to me she is afraid when she gets on SSI that I wont want to go shopping with her, or play board games with her. (she was really excited about playing board games with me) lol   Because she knows I hate getting away from the game. She's 23 years old, and cant go into public alone. she has panic attacks, and freezes up when people talk to her, so I have to go with her. Shes on meds for it. She seeing a therepist. And I am not helping her much at all, just sitting and playing my games 4 or 5 hours a day and more on my days off work. So I think I really need to just quit them.

So I think its time for me to get help too, and finally quit gaming. It makes me have a sinking stomach even thinking about not ever playing again. Today is day one from no gaming. I decided to do this yesterday. So I deleted my games on my pc and on my phone.

I know last time I got bored and thats why it was so easy for me to tempted back to playing. But this time I have a diffrent reason to quit. Plus we have recently bought a puppy border collie. High matience dog, full of energy, so she will force us to leave the house and walk around. We have been training her too. she takes a lot of our time. 

I am so scared that I will give in. I know moderation dont work. I have tried it to many times. lol So i am coming here to just see how other people are doing, and for the support. I dont think I can do this on my own. 

 

Emily

 

 

 

 

Silvertabby
Silvertabby's picture
Offline
Last seen: 1 week 6 days ago
OLGA memberOLGA moderator
Joined: 11/23/2010 - 4:42pm
Hi Emily and welcome back.  I

Hi Emily and welcome back.  I so remember that sinking feeling when I even thought about quitting gaming.  But I did quit and you can too. What has helped me the most is being accountable to others and I do that by attending meetings.  There are meetings several times a day 7 days a week.  You can find the meeting schedule here.  Best of luck to you.

 

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. ~Maria Robinson

wazzapp
wazzapp's picture
Offline
Last seen: 1 year 4 months ago
OLGA memberOLGA moderator
Joined: 01/04/2015 - 10:59am
Hello and welcome back

Hello and welcome back

I relate a lot to what you are writing. Not being there for the people we care about is my biggest regret concerning compulsive gaming.

Thanks for sharing

Never alone, go to meetings <3 Mumble voice meetings on cgaa are great, see you there <3

 

Polga
Polga's picture
Offline
Last seen: 1 hour 37 min ago
AdministratorOLG-Anon memberOLGA member
Joined: 02/17/2014 - 11:33am
Welcome back Emily

Welcome back Emily

I'm glad you are here !

 

INFO

Parent's online meeting THURSDAY 9pmEST/EDT click here

Online meetings gaming addicts click here

Spouses/SO's of addicts click here

Parents of addicts click here for advice

Help for video game addicts click here

Please help! Donate here

ladylindael
Offline
Last seen: 2 years 6 months ago
OLGA member
Joined: 08/04/2013 - 2:56pm
Hi! Thanks for the welcome

Hi! Thanks for the welcome back. Hopefully this time I'll be sticking around. lol and yeah i will for sure be going to the meetings. Monday's and Tuesday's. I'm 5 days in and doing good so far. But I know that urge will force its self into my head eventually. I'll be more prepared this time for it. Lol 

DBAJ
Offline
Last seen: 2 years 7 months ago
OLGA member
Joined: 01/03/2017 - 1:27am
Thank you! Someone I can identify with!

Wow, thank you for popsting your story. I was afraid this would be all a bunch of 20-something people who would not understand me. I just found this site last night, and I need to stop gaming too. It is ruining my life and the lives of my family. Best Wishes to you.

Faith is confidence in what we hope for

Polga
Polga's picture
Offline
Last seen: 1 hour 37 min ago
AdministratorOLG-Anon memberOLGA member
Joined: 02/17/2014 - 11:33am
Welcome to Olga,  DBAJ

Welcome to Olga,  DBAJ

Glad you are here !

INFO

Parent's online meeting THURSDAY 9pmEST/EDT click here

Online meetings gaming addicts click here

Spouses/SO's of addicts click here

Parents of addicts click here for advice

Help for video game addicts click here

Please help! Donate here

ladylindael
Offline
Last seen: 2 years 6 months ago
OLGA member
Joined: 08/04/2013 - 2:56pm
I think there a lot of us

I think there a lot of us older people who are just as addicted as the younger people. Its hard for any of us to overcome it. Might be diffrent phases of life but its just as hard. 

Dre
Dre's picture
Offline
Last seen: 1 year 3 months ago
OLGA member
Joined: 07/27/2016 - 3:17am
ladylindael, 

ladylindael, 

Thanks for posting the story. I definitely related to a lot of what you said--like not wanting to go to the store or feeling like I have no say to games. 

I'm happy for you because I believe good things can happen from you focusing on being there for your daughter and your poodle :) One of the most effective ways to combat this addiction is through service to others

Log in or register to post comments