I find myself struggling hard with online gaming. I enjoy it so much, but also hate it more than anything. I will sit here for hours and just play, but it acts like a time machine. I will sign in at noon and all of a sudden it is 6 PM and I did nothing. I then have no motivation to do anything else.
I want to read more, do more artistic things, and try to find hobbies that incorporate humor into them. I actually have plenty of hobbies I want to work on. I am writing a cartoon, want to brew beer, and draw more. I also used to work out and play sports. Now I just sit here. It is miserable. I just feel like I'm already good at playing the game and do it. The only issue is I get so angry at my team. Take Overwatch for example. I can play for 10 hours and win 2 and lose 1 or win 1 and lose 2. my skill rating changes by 50 points overall after 10 hours of play. What is the point of that?
I feel like I waste every night and weekend. I am single, lonely, depressed, and not challenged. I am so creative and can do so much with my life and just choose not to do so. I know I am depressed, but am seeing a therapist for this.
Is there a way to enjoy an offline game like Zelda for 1 hour instead of playing Overwatch, online NHL games, and Runescape? I just go from one to another.
Do any experienced people have any methods of self control and discipline?