I am 33 years old and have been with an excessive gamer now for 15 years. I have left him twice when we were younger, once because he would not/could not pay rent because he kept calling in sick to work so he could game more. He flunked out of school at least twice because he was gaming excessively but I could never get him to admit it was a problem. he even used to refuse/dismiss sex so that he could continue the game. Finally, he became so obese from sitting and playing that sex is barely possible and that paired with lack of hygeine etc. has made our marraige very rocky. Finally, he hooked up a facebook game to his paypal account and drained our savings by a couple thousand before I noticed, right as I am pregnant withour second son, and we have big medical bills coming in. Without draining savings further, we can't pay rent and birthday presents for our son. I don't mean to be callous, but I am so angry at this point that I can't seem to help myself--I married him because i loved him depsite everything, but now I just feel stupid. I knew he had a problem and now I don't understand what I was thinking to stay with him.
I cry constantly, not just because I'm pregnant, but because I'm grieving everything that could have and should have been. I am so close to just walking away.. His parents hate me because I am being insensitive and they think I am being silly over the mere $2,000 plus he just spent over the last three months, but it is so much more than that. My son and I eat alone most of the time while he sits at the computer and conversations stall out as I speak to him, onesided, while he stares at smart-phone games. After the money incident he's started admitting he has a problem but only somtimes. Then he backpedals when he starts contemplating a life without games. he's been, at least mostly off games for a couple of days and is now starting withdrawl. I am having a hard time being supportive when I am already so angry from years of this. I feel alone, and so sad, and so angry.