So I haven't posted here in a very long time. When I was posting (as wearingthin)
here I was engaged to a mentally and emotionally abusive asheron's
call addict. After 4 years of being ignored for a video game I got
the strength the leave him. It was the best decision I've ever made
for myself. I feel like a completely different person now that I
have been away from him for close to two years. I have a confidence
that I never felt while I was with him. I laugh. All the time. It's
beautiful not having that burden. I'm so glad I didn't go through
with that wedding. God only knows where I would be now if I did.
God sent me an amazing man about a year and a half ago. His name is
James. He's a firefighter/EMT. He is older, more established,
motivated, funny, compassionate, and just generally wonderful. Every
day I fall for him a little more. He's bringing me home for
Christmas to meet his mom and we're making plans for our future
together. I am so happy. So why am I back here?
He and a few of his work buddies bought some war game. I'm not ever
sure of the name of it because it is so insignifigant right now. He
knows all about the relationship between my ex and I. He knows that
his addiction to asheron's call is what tore us apart. He
understands and respects that and asked me before he started playing
if I would be okay with it. He is very busy with his firefighting
career, his part-time serving job, taking 8 hrs of classes, and me,
so I didn't think I would have a problem with it and told him I
wouldn't mind at all as long as it did not take time away from us
and other areas of his life.
Now thus far he's had this game for about 2 months. I've seen him
play it about 4 times. Every time its been while I am making dinner.
He'll ask if I need help with dinner or cleaning and if I say no ask
if I would mind if he plays. So it's never been an issue really.
Until last night. As I was making dinner I went into the office to
ask him a question and see that he has bought a headset and
downloaded ventrilo. BAAAAAD memories. I became very emotional and
apologized. I told him I know that he had done nothing wrong and was
sorry for getting so emotional. He understood and assured me that he
would not let this come between us.
Now, I know I can't take out a former lovers mistakes on my new one,
but GEEZ, that was hard to see. What I'm wondering is does anyone
think it is wrong for me to ask him not to play at all? He has done
nothing wrong. My mind keeps telling me this. But my heart is not
ready for the idea of this again. Ugh. Any input is appreciated.
Thanks for reading!