I'm so glad I found this place. My husband has been addicted on and off for 13 years now. As some of you know I'm sure, there are good days and bad days, but I'm just so drained anymore. I can't keep on this battle. It all started in with Asheron's Call, and since then it's been anything from WoW, Aion, Eve, Guild Wars.. his newest addiction is Ingress, which makes it all the more painful because now he's not even home anymore. He plays when he drives, and I'm scared to death he's going to get in an accident. He leaves at all hours of the night to go cycling, wandering in dark parks (we live in a large city with fairly high crime, I don't need to mention what a bad idea *that* is)
I have done what so many of us have done - I've cried, I've yelled, I've bargained. I even tried to turn the tables on him, and every time he logged into a game I'd open up a bottle of wine.. I'd get drunk to show him how awful it is to have a spouse with an addiction, but in the end he didn't care so I gave up that try. (which looking back was stupid and embarrassing, but I was at my wits end) I even separated from him, moving across the state for months when he lost a job to gaming and wasn't compelled to find a new one (we had to move in with his parents because of that, and I just couldn't handle that, living with my inlaws so my husband can stay home all day to play his games.) he ended up coming back to me, begging me to come back, that he would change. And he did, for a bit. You all know the cycle.
But now, we have kids, we have a home, we have a huge stack of bills, and it doesn't matter to him. Nothing matters but the games. He barely comes home at night anymore, and I'm left trying to come up with excuses so the kids don't get heartbroken over where Daddy is. I'm embarrassed, I have no one to talk to about this. I've been thinking about just packing up and moving again, with out, live with my dad for a bit, but my oldest is in school and I can't do that. I don't want to be here with him when he's like this, to walk into the room and see the glow of the monitor and the back of his head, if he is even home anymore. It would be easier if he was cheating on me, because at least then I could feel like he found someone else, but no.. He wants games over real people, over his wife, his kids. and that hurts more than anything I can think of.