Hello to all,
I have posted many times before and stil come here to express myself and to fond help in this horrible situation I am in.
I left for 4 weeks and I just came back.
The first 2 days and a half were just fine. However, on monday, I left for work (time to connect) there was a mistake at work so I came back home (I called to tell). Horrible again, it was like I didn't have to be there. Made me feel like I was not supposed to be there and that he didn't want me to be there. I came home naturally and happy, I he made me feel so miserable. Screamed, violent words almost like delirious again. And all of it was my fault. Unbelievable.
At one time listening to his words I said to my selself, all of his mind is changing into SL, into something that would let him feel good playing SL: denying, minimising and all of it "naturaly" my fault (seaching things in the past I didn't do right, comparing friends that has hobbies to him, and many lies with his SL life). All his world, thoughts is Second Life oriented. His perception are altered it is very impressive. Saying that I was the crazy one and that I have problems. Very violent and always saying that he would leave the house, but doesn't. Like he was trying to destroy me.
Stopped therapy again.
I feel very bad. I always thought he could over come his addiction and I think I am still it that hope. I feel a lot of anger towards himis Second Life addict players that are pulling others into this addiction (they really don't see what is happening to them and for the family and friends).
I really don't know what to do.
Take care
Kyana
Hi Kyana
Reading your post make me see how the people who love us feels about us, your concern for our addiction and for the time we spent in front of the computer playing.
The issue is this, he needs to admit that he has a problem with this game and then take actions about it, is like he gotta touch deep to admit it... until that, and i'm talking about my own experience, he will continue playing and thinking that you're the crazy one. I think that the most important thing in this process is how bad you want to stop living like this...
I'm a secondlife addict and i'm fighting against it and the fight is everyday... is true day by day the urge for coming back is less but sometimes i have moments in which the anger overcomes me. I think is important to be aware of this and try to find a way to deal with it, because this "moments" will be there, for how long? i'm not sure.
It's also important to be aware how this moments could affect to the people who surround us and take actions on that, because you don't have suffer because of this... you're not guilty of our addiction, i think you're victims in this whole mess... and yes, the only responsible for our own actions are us.
I used to be very mean with my mum, she always told me "you spent a lot of hours in that game, that's not sane" and i yelled at her, i was so angry at her, she was taking me away from my "perfect world", she was my enemy because i was having fun there and she didn't understand that... i really understand your anger, my mum hates that game and not only the game but the friends i have there and with i still communicate.
I really wish that he can see how damage is causing to his own life and to the people who loves him and that he can take actions about it. Maybe reading post of other secondlife addicts would help a bit?...
See you around ^^
Hello Mubb,
I have just read you message. I am very touched by it.
I need to fin the good words in english to answer correctly but I wanted to leave this message before.
Thank you
Good day to you.
Kyana