Firs of all, please excuse my english, it`s not my mother tongue.
I have descovered this site and it was such a big chanse for me to understand what I`m going true. It helps alot to see that I`m not alone in this and to see that, in the other corner of the world, there are people with the same sorrow.
I just left my boyfriend, after two years and a half. In the same day I have descovered your site (God bless you all!) and started to understand that I`m not crazy and I`m not overreacting.
I feel empty, depressed and I cry alot. I`m not even sure if I made the right decision leaving him alone, with his addiction. I used to feel guilty that I don`t have a hobby, like he has, that I hate this game, that I need love and attention. I used to think that I`m not good enough for him to be his wife and mother for his future children... I used to cry, nag him and ask for love, for affection, for time together. His mother blamed me for not being able to pull him out of his gaming. She`s also desperate, and she forced me, somehow, to follow my own way, because I`m 30 years old and I need a real family, not the one I could have with his son.
Now that I start to understand that my significant other is in such a danger, I don`t feel I am a good Christian, and I have remords. I want to help him, I now I could, but he become such a difficult person since he is playing WOW... I look at him, I feel my heart full of love for him, but, when I talk to him, I feel like I`m hiting against a wall.
And what a pity! We have everything: a new, beautiful, big house, in the capital of our country, a small garden, where I wanted to see our future children playing, good jobs, money, good health...
And this game is taking everything from me! The man I love, my dreams... It`s just not fair!
I became hesitant, low self esteem woman, absent and sad. I just wanted to have a family with the man I felt in love with. I can`t just accept that "It wasn`t ment to be".
Am I selfish if I just run and don`t look behind me? There is any garantee in this world that I`m gonna meet the right man for me and I`ll live with him happy ever after?
I don`t have any bench-mark now, I`m just sick and tired of being treated like a furniture, like a pet, or like a house keeper.
I`ll stop here, because it`s hard for me to write, it`s easier to read in english. Everything I could write here, has been alreadyA written. I identify myself and my hurt feelings in every word I read.
Congratulations for those that abandoned the game. Best wishes for the family members, I empatise with you! And I need advices from you all. Thank you!