We had a fight the other night about his addiction and as usual I ended up crying and saying forget about it, I'm sorry. He told me that the past year has been all about me and that I should move out. He holds it over me every time we fight about anything. He brings up my mistakes in the past year and I have since then done everything in my power to atone for them, including giving my privacy and doing things for him I have never done for anyone. But he seems to forget my sacrifices whenever we argue about his addiction and about how it's time for him to grow up.
It's not always like this...Like every person with an addiction, he is amazing when he isn't in the throngs of his gaming. For whatever reason he gets irate when people start demanding real life things of him when he is gaming. The other night he got angry at me because I wanted to have sex. He explained to me that his libido is down and that he doesn't know what I want from him when I ask that we "spend time together". He doesn't want to go outside and he doesn't typically like any of the ideas I pitch, so I am vague when I say I want to spend time. He doesn't like that and he says I am relying on him to come up with ideas. We can't spend money at the moment and I am frankly afraid to talk to him for fear he will just get mad. How does someone have a relationship like this? But like I said, he isn't always like this. He is wonderful, kind, considerate, loving, and fun...just not right now.
On top of this, my ex is starting to pop up in my life. Which only puts my bf off even more. Not to be spiteful, but if my ex is paying attention to me while my current isn't then there is an issue here. I have no reason to trust my ex but the attention is nice and I wish my bf would get out of his game into mine. Problem? yes. Solution???