This is kinda hard.. I just have to face that I finally had a meltdown. I hate it. I have been trying to detach - in a loving way - but I got sucked back in and somehow can't seem to detach again. It's all emptyness in me. Gamer now again have the ability to break my heart and get to my feelings. And now I feel all the neglect, loneliness, rage and sadness again. Feels like going into a depression again. My good mood has disappeared, and I'm genuinely missing my gamer and the love. Just wanna cry or dream away from everything. Can't deal with this. Don't have any idea where to get with this, just hoping for some support or any words from anyone who have been where I am right now.