I don't know anymore..

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PrincessDreaming
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I don't know anymore..

Hi everyone.

This is kinda hard.. I just have to face that I finally had a meltdown. I hate it. I have been trying to detach - in a loving way - but I got sucked back in and somehow can't seem to detach again. It's all emptyness in me. Gamer now again have the ability to break my heart and get to my feelings. And now I feel all the neglect, loneliness, rage and sadness again. Feels like going into a depression again. My good mood has disappeared, and I'm genuinely missing my gamer and the love. Just wanna cry or dream away from everything. Can't deal with this. Don't have any idea where to get with this, just hoping for some support or any words from anyone who have been where I am right now.

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Hi Princess

Hi Princess

I know the frustration and sadness of a loved ones life not being what it could or should be.

Gaming makes them into a different person that cannot be reasoned with and cannot empathise with us. It's so sad that they are affected this way and lost to us. Their brain is running wrong and they cannot see the bad effects. They really think they are alright.

I am so sorry for your loss of the person you love. Hugs to you. xx

 

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Princess,  I feel so badly

Princess,  I feel so badly for you because I have been in exactly the same place.  My own relationship is ending now because of it.  To see the person you love become a completely different person as he or she gets sucked deeper and deeper into the game, the virtual world, day after day at all hours of the day and night... it's awful. They lose empathy.  Things they would have condemned others for before - now they do themselves.  Like Polga said, they are lost.  I try to remember I will not miss the gamer I have now.  I miss the person she used to be.  But that person doesn't exist anymore.

I know it helps very little, but please know you are not alone.

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Thanks for reading my post.

Polga and Sad Dad, thanks for your words. I'm glad that this site and all of you exists. Makes me feel less alone. But yeah, I can't really deal with this.. I feel like I've gone many steps back, and my situation feels pretty frustrating.

And Sad Dad , I'm so sorry for your loss of your relationship. I guess all of us - conciously or subconciously - knows that, that's where it possibly could be ending. At least that's what my "inner voice" has been preparing me for, for some time. Not that it makes it any easier. Deep down I just want things to work out and that my gamer becomes the fantastic man he once was - don't we all at some stage? I guess that's where I am now - again.

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