I've made the decision to go home, without a word.
my husband is military and we live across the US from my hometown, and I've decided that I've done all I can and he doesn't take me serious, so I'm going home to where I'm loved and supported.
my heart feels so heavy, and I haven't stopped crying, but I think this is my last option.
weve been married 3 1/2 years, and it's always been this way. I've done all I could from rationalizing his "hobby" to bargainin and compromising, but I am not happy.
we lived in Europe for 3 years (my dream come true) and he never wanted to travel, he tells everyone who's asks that it sucked, because the Internet was too slow.
im pregnant, and I'm terrified of having this baby, because I'm terrified of my baby not having a daddy present, because he games.
he used every small act of kindness as an excuse as to why he deserves the game.
I don't like sex anymore, and I am just not seeing a happy or adult relationship here. He doesn't tak to me because he doesn't want to waste time arguing, he only talks about games and his idea of spending time together is playing games.
ive read a couple of books this past week just starving for guidance, and I'm at my rope's end. So I'm going home to be with my family, and I'm hoping he will ultimately choose me in the end.
but for now, I can't sleep and I can't stop crying, and the man cuddled in bed next to me makes it so much harder to go, because I love him so, and I know beyond the addiction he loves me to.