I've been battling with my husband's gaming addiction for years. Now that we have a baby and I'm not working, I can't run or avoid this problem any more because my own distractions are gone. The issue is now very present and I think that I am literally starting to be mentally affected by this situation. I always said and felt that I'd fight for my marriage, but I don't even have the strength to think that way anymore. I'm so drained emotionally, mentally, and now physically that I don't know if I can try to work this out with my gaming husband. I'm strongly considering getting legally separated from him. Honestly, I don't want a divorce. I love my husband, there is no one else for me--he is a good man with good qualities but his addiction is so strong and present that the bad overshadows all the good in him.
My husband won't get help. I feel that he tries to manipulate me to make me feel like I'm the one who is overeacting. I feel like I've taken the mental beating that has pushed me to my limits. I'm praying for Jesus to make it clear to me what I should do. But at the same time my husband won't give me the time to pray and reflect on what I should do--he wants an answer now. I don't want to make a hasty decision, but I feel like giving up. I'm exhausted in every way imaginable. My husband barely sleeps, dips tobacco, doesn't go to work (and gets away with it), doesn't spend time with us, spends a lot of money (I'm talking tens of thousands of dollars over the past few years), has failed college classes, and of course, games day in and day out like it's a full time job--in summary, he's a functional addict, so no one really knows how bad this problem is. On the outside he seems normal, but in our house I am breaking down living with him. I wish I could write more to explain my situation more clearly, but I don't even have the energy to do that.
I can't fathom trying to go another day or week living like this. The only thing that keeps me going at this point is my daughter. When is it appropriate to leave? Does anyone here have an experience where they had to leave their spouse for their own sanity?...and I'm not even kidding when I use the word sanity. I just really want to know when is it the best decision to leave because I have no clue what to do at this point and if I do choose to leave, I want to affirm that my actions were justified.
I appreciate everybody on here. I'm glad we all have a safe place to talk about these issues as we cannot talk about it at home.