I'm sitting here crying, yet again, because my husband chose games over me. I've discussed my concerns to him several times and we agreed he would at least spend a little bit of time everyday with me talking about our days. Sounds simple enough, but I have to beg for time. He gets up in the middle of me talking and says he is tired of talking and goes immediately to his games. I follow him with a mix of emotions including anger, sadness, neglect, frustration and loneliness, but the anger won this time. I started telling him that he had promised to talk with me and we got into a small argument. I ended up saying "they aren't even your real friends" and I guess his headset was on even though it wasn't on his head and his "friends" heard me. My husband yelled that at least his friends didn't abandon me (as most of my friends moved out of state and I get to see them less often). Yes, that hurt, but now I am feeling guilty about what I feel is true because his friends heard. I know he can't have real conversations with these guys he plays with. It's all about games and electronics. I hate feeling guilty, I hate feeling alone. I wish I wasn't as concerned about what others thought. Does anyone have experience with guilt and how they deal with it in gaming type situations? I'm working on reacting less and working on myself more, but sometimes I get angry. I appreciate any input. Thanks.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance -James 1:2-3