The Addict's Motto

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The Addict's Motto

I was talking with another recovering gaming addict the other night and we were discussing how as we move along in recovery we see our disease more and more clearly. I mentioned what I'm calling the Addict's Motto (based on stuff I heard elsewhere):

"Anything worth doing is worth overdoing."

He told of a speaker who said, "I'm sure glad there isn't a magic pill that would fix my addiction. If there were, I would probably just grab the bottle and take all of them at once."

I mean, gosh, if a little of it makes me feel better, then a lot of it will make me feel a lot better, right? In fact, if I stop doing everything else and do just that, I'll feel better all the time, right?

The scary thing is that the above statement doesn't really seem so crazy to me. LOL. I guess.

I am a recovering computer game and gambling addict. My recovery birthday: On May 6, 2012 I quit games and began working a program of recovery through OLGA No computer games or slot games for me since December 12, 2012. No solitaire games with real cards since June 2013.

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haha Dan.  Boy can I relate

haha Dan. Boy can I relate to that! I'm always telling myself that moderation and balance should be my mantras...maybe me saying that all the time is overdoing it as well! LOL. I can't stop laughing here because it's soooo true. Geez!

"Even when you think it's about you, it's not about you." Dr. Bill

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Thanks for sharing Dan. I

Thanks for sharing Dan. I think the 'addict's motto' you are bringing forward is relating towards something I learned at school this semester. I see you have it quoted in your signature as well: "Addiction is a primary, chronic disease of brain reward.."

In my opinion that's the tricky part of addiction. My experience in recovery thus far made me realize I can overdo stuff that's good for me..in moderation. For example: I love to work out. I joined a boot camp group when I got back from my treatment in South-Africa. As my fitness improved I started to recover faster after an hour workout. This made me think I didn't have enough or worked hard enough so I ended up running a half an hour or so after the workout. Pushing boundaries like this increases the chance of injuries and I could end up not being able to join my boot camp group. In the worst case this sport injury could lead me back to gaming because boot camp is like an outlet valve for me and became an important part of my recovery. Now I join 3 (1 hour) workouts a week, on monday tuesday and saterday. And when I feel like I need an outlet, I go for a walk.

At the meetings I attend I heard people call addiction "the disease of 'more and more'" (in Dutch: de ziekte van 'meer en meer').

Boundaries keep you safe.

Born in 1987, the Netherlands | Recovering addict since January 2013.
During treatment of addiction I began to acknowledge the problem.
One day at a time; trying my best to live the solution.
Just for Today; I have a choice.

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Rob87 wrote: At the meetings
Rob87 wrote:

At the meetings I attend I heard people call addiction "the disease of 'more and more'" (in Dutch: de ziekte van 'meer en meer')....

Anything worth doing is worth doing to excess.

"The disease of brain reward" is valid, but it doesn't explain all of it to me.

Once I got caught in an addiction--gaming--and got set up in a cycle of "rewards", it became dang hard to stop that cycle because my brain felt deprived of anything good in life. Life was huge, fuzzy and grey. Life was angst, agitation, and misery. Life felt like I would never enjoy again. Which was true until I "made" myself do other things like artwork, writing, reading, gardening, kayaking, again. I did those things until the original joy of them came back again.

Recovery is a persistant day to day activity, putting one foot in front of the other, and walking toward and through recovery. Every day without games, I feel a bit better.

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I am just starting to really

I am just starting to really understand this concept. It describes my situation completely, it's just that I have been under such system of rewards for so long that I forgot how to find pleasure in things I have to do to survive.

Real life is full of small but important things to do everyday.

There is a saying in my country - 'what must be done surely mustn't be hard for you to do'.

An awkward phrase but what it means is you just can't back down on your obligations in life, you must find a way to love what you do somehow. To find some part of anything that you like doing.

Like I said, this whole concept is hard for me as an addict, as I just have a really hard time finding positives in anything else. For many years, nothing, including social relationships, gave me such pleasure.

I have been a gamer since late 90's.
I've realized just how much my games have consumed my life. My gaming habit made me deeply unhappy, but I didn't see it.
Lately it has become just too much painful to game again and I have set some goals in my life which I intend to fulfill. Doing it all on my own is not possible.
I am an addict and I admit that I am powerless.

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That is absolutely so true

That is absolutely so true for me, also, Sheep.

It took me a few months to enjoy a slower-paced life, than expecting instant gratification. It still can bother me a bit, but it is getting much better.

I couldn't enjoy the moment, because what ever I was doing had to get done quickly so I could get to the next best thing--which I thought would be much better--haha; learning to live and enjoy in the moment was unnerving at first, but it's worth it.

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