It's my official 3rd day (after many other failed attempts of quitting before) gaming free..
I know it's silly to even think there would be big differences, but still.. I feel empty when I just stand still for a second, I need to do something otherwise I'll start gaming again..
It's really very hard, yet so easy to quit. Now if I think of gaming..boring, but I somehow feel the NEED. Like something is pushing me towards this addiction. I feel empty and lonely if I don't game, and it's easy to understand, I never filled that emptiness before with something else but gaming, I don't know any better.
If I think of other acitivities, I just feel so lazy and bored then.. I even force myself into doing those activities and still no results, I think it's boring and gaming is the answer(for that short amount of time).
I hope one day I can say no to gaming, and yes to study, workout, go out, walk, bike, socialize.. (I'm very shy and anti social).
Is there anyone else who experiences (or experienced) laziness because of gaming? Or is it something else that's making me lazy.. it's very hard then to force yourself to study but I have fun, I just don't enjoy it really much anymore as I did before.. and being a future engineer, that should be my way of life, being curious and love what I would do.
Day 4 is closing in.. scheduled the following:
-Studyin library - for the fourth time - with no laptop or any other distraction,
-Watch a movie,
-Go out for a drink (coffee),
-Fitness (I'm amazed how lazy I've become, already thinking about not going because it takes time to get there)
I hope I'll find something small to do if I'll have any time left, otherwise my urge to game kicks in.
By the way, thank you for sharing your thoughts on this forum, I try to read them all(topics).
Well I'm off to bed, the only time and place I'm not thinking about gaming or 'being bored'.