fizzle32's progress report

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fizzle32
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fizzle32's progress report

Background :
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In my thirties, playing games since I could remember. EQ, WoW, Eve, Counterstrike, AC, UO, you name it I've played it.

Why I've decided to quit:
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It is getting harder and harder to come back to a reality that I am beginning to despise. My life sucks. If I died today it wouldn't even cause a ripple, yes I am that irrelevant.

I have one thing going for me. A will to survive. I don't know if I can break free and face my ugly life, but I will put up a fight.

Plan
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Cold turkey. Get rid of games. All games. No CD's, no images on the hard drive, no manuals, no fraps, no teamspeak.

I will begin to reach for a "character" to improve, and will find that the only character I have left is my real life. If I work half as hard at working on my life as I did at working on my game, I might even dig myself out of this.

Day 1 Log
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Made post on olga
Removed all games and everything related.
Actually sat down at the desk and managed to get work done.
I have a big day tommorrow so I better get some sleep. 7 hours should do it. Gnight

shiva
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Re: fizzle32's progress report

good luck and success on your journey back to your self

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What you think, you create. What you say, you produce. What you do, you call forth more of.

fizzle32
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Thanks for the kind words, Calm Force.

Day 2
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Still game free.
Rewarded myself with ordering a movie, it was pretty good.
Not sure what I am supposed to do until I get tired enough to go to bed.
Don't want to work anymore. Want to relax.
But how does one relax without video games?

Ahh I guess that's the challenge.

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I have not read much for the last years. I used to read heaps of books, but somehow I cannot get into reading anymore. I can still read bunches of professional literature (or gaming literature), but reading books for amusement is eluding me at the moment.

It seems I am somehow estranged from the beauty. I desperately want to get back to the point where the world was beautiful and young and interesting and wonderful. Sad thing is that I try to do it in completely the wrong way, namely by playing games which remind me of the past. But when I played them in the past I was not addicted and had a wonderful life. So I kinda try to get back to the memories of the wonderful life, instead of spending my energy of enhancing my life now.

Pretty sad

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What you think, you create. What you say, you produce. What you do, you call forth more of.

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