This is my first time posting here and I would like to start off by sharing a little bit about my struggle against gaming. I have been an enthralled gamer for a little less than half of my lifespan and I am looking to reduce that ratio. The time spent on the habit has returned few benefits and has facilitated social withdrawal, complacency, procrastination and ultimately depression.
I was able to quit MMOs in college but that made little difference when other games filled in. I managed to scrape through the schoolwork and did reasonably well but other than that, I was paying top dollar to sit in a dorm room playing games. Following graduation I was somewhat of a lazy pos and wasn't able to get a job and ended up living at home with my family. I had expected much more of myself and the situation I was in really got me down. The grief did nothing to motivate me, only making the situation worse. I managed to find a part time consulting project that I would hardly consider a stable job. I was working from home and, due to my habits, not making very good progress.
As April came to a close I was so disgusted with my gaming habit and I decided that I had to change. I am very proud to say that I did not spend a single minute playing video games during the month of May, continuing to this day. During this time I was able to make great progress on my project, ramp up my exercise habits, and find a nice job(I start this week)!
That said, I still feel like I am a long ways from living a balanced life and my drive to abstain from gaming is waning. I was motivated at first by self-disgust, and then later on by the allure of a new job and a new life. Those two motivations have died down and I find myself thinking(and dreaming) about gaming a lot more. Also, I have not been able to significantly increase time spent on hobbies or socializing. I spend most of my time working the project and when I take breaks I go for long aimless walks, run/lift, or indulge my other bad habits. These have all seen an increase since May and comprise internet/smartphone/tv, eating fatty foods, and drinking among other things.
I am afraid that I will slip back into gaming once I start my new job. I think that it will be difficult for the first few months and that games will stay in the front of my mind as an attractive way to relieve stress. I am still committed to abstinance, odaat and all that, and I want to be more active in this community. I will need to continue to make changes by filling in the hobbies and social activies. I am so happy to have made it this far and I hope that I can continue my progress. Thank you for reading my post!