I guess I should start at the beginning. Ive been playing games vor almost 30 years now starting with atari. My first reL mmo was WOW where I actually met my wife. We played heavily for about 4 years until we decided it was ruining our lives. So we stopped gaming for the last few years.
So imet up with a old friends a couple months ago and gave in to peer presure and started playing Tera. I started spending money on the game like it was water. The more I spentthe easier it was to keep spending. The major problem is I didnt teell my wife that I was playing or spending money on it. She found out from a bank statement and called the number on it. Well needless to say it caused more problems becuse I not only lied but was hiding it from her.
Well that was two days ago now and I havent played a game of any kind since. I uninstalled the game from my computer and am selling it and going to a communal laptop with. I feel exhausted and still have urges and know I will be having them for a while. I also attended my first meeting last nite, I did not speak out cause im still embarassed about what ive done. Tonite I will be attending another nightly meeting and will be speaking out.
I dont like the man ive become and I want5o be the husband she deserves so im here seeking the help and suport of other who have already lived threw tough times.